Juz a normal gal

No airport pass =[

2010-11-22T23:06:00.001+08:00

It is going to be another month soon.. Time pass real fast wif my current job. Haf been working nearly 3 mths alr. But I haven gt my season pass sian.. Tml suppose to be at airside but wifout a pass I am stuck outside.. Todae station at t3. e workload nt as heavy n I checked mine email Todae at last... But still no news sia.. Hope I can get mine pass soon.

Tis post is a reminder to myself

2010-11-12T08:44:00.001+08:00

Yahoooo.. Got mine iphone4 ytd.. 1yr ltr to jailbreak 2yrs ltr to change new hp =P

For the past 2 years....

2010-10-27T23:57:00.004+08:00

It has been a long time since i last blog... Currently working nite shift.. Nthing much todae except i forget to bring my ic, so cant go inside...

Recent activties has brought bck alot memories... it is been a happening year for the past two years... Alot of changes...
Change is always happening in every second of our life.. Every decision we made, promise we break affects e near future...
I have learn alot n tink alot. But e more i tink e more experience gain every step n move becomes heavier. I juz read an article toking abt young singaporeans lack e moviation to sucess in life n less been living too gd a life. But i dun tink tat generation has come yet but tat will apply to the 90s soon...
Recently there has been alot of gang activities on going in e newspaper dun really understand y they join those gangs...

Singapore is changing alot, I feel tat it is no longer e homeland tat it used to be. There are so many foreigns labeling themselves as citizen. Even thought the economy us stable n growing, it no longer feel like home. But my parents tink tat Singapore is still gd for living...

Even since I started Tis new current job the feeling gets stronger, n I being to feel irritated by those Singaporeans. they feel tat they shod be treated as kings n queens. Muz be super polite to them, serve them wif all their qn. Sometimes it juz feel tired, wif nth on ur bck for support.
Tml is another morning shift hope I will survive until nxt year at least which left wif one n a half month..

Sick

2010-07-18T21:23:00.004+08:00

Haiz has been sick for a week liao .. Tml will be a new week. Hope everything is fine and smooth. There r many things in mind. Cant juz make up mine mind. I nv gt e break i deserve. Shld i juz break for a second to catch my breathe...

I am feeling breatheless...

双子座(Gemini)

2010-07-18T21:23:00.001+08:00

有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

Hmm i tink quite true.

A new job

2010-06-30T18:21:00.003+08:00

I knw i haven been blog for a long time... Many things haf changed in this short period of time. Be it relationship, environment, thinking and many many more. People change so as our surrounding.

I haf at last quitted my job at ATS, aft enduring for three years. Finally the company piss me off and off i go.. Now working in a smaller local company, job scope mainly on purchasing of w/s consumable. But i still dun like to meet suppliers. haiz. But still gt to entertain them even when they knock our doors uninvited.

Currently i am still enjoying my "sch hol" n nt intending to start in the nxt sem cos i am really tired. I dunno y tis job makes me so tired. Dino sae cos is stressful? but dunno lah haah.. Agree tat e job is stressful n haf a heavy workload, but e boss treats us better. Somemore she is pregnant. Cos pregnant woman gt more mood swings hur, but she treats us better lor. Really. But one thing maybe e expectation is different bah. Cos ATS is consider more estalish den e current, so some of e things r nt really understandable. They r still going thru the stage of standardising their procedures, as they haf juz change e erp sys.

I dunno when i will wan to continue my driving lesson, as i am broke haiz.. Hw to save for my harry potter park =(. So sad nah.. How i wish i strike toto or 4D.

time

2009-12-19T13:21:00.002+08:00

Today went to 7-11 planning to buy big m. But they no longer sell it. Meji haf taken over. I still misses e morning bkfast, but time will change everything. Like I watch lost first season I can't link it to season six although some char r same.

a strange dae

2009-12-05T23:51:00.004+08:00

Couldn't slp. Hiding inside my blanket,getting so hot. So long haf not been blogging n I couldnt rmb my user id lol.
Today is a beri strange dae. Tis morning while going for driving lesson at 7+, a attitude young boi approach me for money. I was sitting at e bus stop waiting for bus while studying for my final theory. Tis boi suddenly sit beside me n told me his mum gave him $4 for lunch n went to work. N he lost e money.So I understand he want me to give him money la. But I dun believe him, e way he intro himself n sit beside me is like throwing a piece of meat nxt to me n splash the blood along. E moment he sit den I feel like walking away. In e end no money for him n he ask to read my theory bk. So irritating, can't he see my stop disturbing me face. Lucky he left shortly.

I took my final theory evaluation today n failed, cos I last min hug Buddha leg.

Today's driving lesson is on starting n stopping on slope. Did quite ok la. Cos tried bef. But wouldn't drive smoothly at first. Cos of toopid stk tk, 2wk no driving. The instructor beri naggy. Kip repeating wad he sae. Den juz bef going bck to bbdc, gt BMW cut into my lane at a traffic junction. Den e instructor honk e bmw. Den the BMW aso siao one. Cut lane nvm, aft tat stop suddenly at the turn causing a jam behind. Den e instructor beri ji dong sae wan to make police report, kip asking me e car colour. I told him sliver or gray den he kip asking isit green or blue. Kent tahan. Somemore ask me drive bck to see the road name win liao.

2 weird ppl in a dae. Wad a dae.

My pdl kena water words abit fate dunno Tml can drive on road abit hai....

2009

2009-11-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

2dae had some talks wif my boss. he said things tat shld nt be said n told me to kip quiet abt it. there are many ideas behide these talks. i juz gt this feeling tat it will affect me. but hw, why and when i am not sure off. i am in doubled. i will be miaing as the mth slip in and the activties increases without acknowledge...

therefore my reflection of the year is not to let ppl too close n continue letting time slipping through when i enjoy the contemporary peace sank in.

my nxt yr goal will be to visit harry potter park, finish my degree, change job if the opportunity comes and lastly getting my driving license.

End of the mth will be visiting it fair to renew contract n change my hp. plz let the hp price drop so i can save more for my harry potter park.

wad i type may not makes any sense therefore gdnite.

2009-11-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

I dunno y i juz feel so stress up. Sch n work taking alot of my time. but at least i look forward to my driving lessons. One tat i would really control it in my hand.

there are things tat i am trying to understand n trying real hard nt to judge it bef understanding. but it may take forever to understand. thinking are complex. if human brain are simpler. would things haf been had easiler. nwadaes getting more n more bz. haf been doing reports for the whole week n not yet finish. there are so much to learn. so many things to grab but i let them slip through my hands. cos when tat happen i feel relieved.

sometimes i wish tat i would go by to my pri sch, whereby i normally spent time looking through the window at the stairs. i dunno wad i am looking for but when i let the time slip pass me. n someone awake me frm my daydreaming. things felt relieved. i haf nt had tis feeling for a long time.

i like to be left alone, away frm all the chaos, things shld be left simple, cos i am alone. I like the feeling of the peace. hope it will continue.

http://www.crimsonrain.com/2009/10/english-song-enya-o-come-o-come.html
i like tis song. e feeling of mystery n freedom. e sense that if i dare to do, nthing could stop me. i will upload the song when i am free.

The Stupidity Test

2009-08-07T09:04:00.001+08:00

Birthdae

2009-06-21T22:20:00.004+08:00

sooo tired 2dae. but it was fun n enjoyable. father's dae. Go Kboxing at jp safra. So many ppl la. den kip changing ppl. Sing n sing old new wadever song aso gt ar. Safra member go onli $10 for 2-3hr lor.. so cheap nah..

source frm maggy's blog =P

My entries all no link de. if u knw me, most of the time i tok no link de haha. 2dae's entry is base on my memory. but hor u knw la, i gt stm mah. So i kent rmb every details. So if i miss out any parts rmb for me thanks..

June like aso gt many ppl birthdae sia.. ytd celebrated once at my grandparent hse, 2dae another one. June holiday used to be the best mth for me. cos no nid go sch ar so happy. nw is nt the best mth alr. cos normally ard june company will sae when when stock take liao. sianz.. Tml nid to go work liao so boring la.. nthing to blog abt when working. Work is like dae in dae out. different problems but same ting. no point saeing cos is hard to explain n some dun understand too...

Tis yr i had a early birthdae celebration cos ping n her sis going overseas. Ate steamboat at my hse. 1st time i ask so many ppl come my hse. Normally i dun ask ppl visit my hse cos my guard nt tat friendly wif strangers. We had alot of leftovers ar. but everyting finish within the nxt wk. Cos i wasnt working. i luv steamboat haha.. Anyway wad i tink birthdae no nid buy present la. econ so bad muz save $ ok. E best is gather ard n eat a meal. Being tgt is e impt part nah. But i still muz still sae thanks for the gifts.

Ok tis section is specially for someone de cos gt ppl complaint nv c her name in my blog wor. So muz specially highlight haha..

My new watch.
White watch >.<, second white watch le. Dunno y ppl tink white watch suits me. But nvm i shld try wearing them. Cos someone sae muz c me wear on my wrist la.. LOL jking k. Cos i trust ur taste. haha happy aft reading? Anyway i still cant figure out wad is e 3rd small circle for le.. i dunno hw to read manual cos i am a explorer. i play wif it rather den learning it haha... Thank you ok. study well for ur "O" levels but dun over stress. u r doing great wif ur current study. dun worry too much. If u nid someone to crap find me ok. but dun bully me hor, i am ur ying ying jie jie ok =P (btw my thumbdrive still wif u le. no show c liao D=

ok la i go slp le.. tml still nid to work ar.. nt like some of e happy kids out there hafing hol n maybe an extra wk hol becos of H1N1 virus.

Holidae

2009-06-16T09:52:00.002+08:00

weee haf been taking leaves these few daes.. working is dam sian. old liao play game aso tired.. maple nw server maintaince nah.. kent play aso..

2dae will be bzbz. ltr nid to go for interview den go for basic driving evaluation. Hope i can pass this time den go for the test nxt mth. Muz PASS!!!

痞子英雄

2009-05-20T22:21:00.003+08:00

Nice show muz watch...

Prison Break

2009-05-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

Sad juz finish watching prison break last ep. the show that i haf been chasing since poly has ended. Juz like e same feeling i had when i read harry potter's last bk. i dunno wad to look forward to.

Everyting will come to an end one dae, no matter wad. I really nid to learn hw to let go. 拿得起放的下。i am really bad at it. hai...but i understand every end is also a beginning. To end for a new beginning..Anyway, tml will be going for an interview.. for fun? Since someone called i wouldnt throw away the chance la.. Even though the job nw is more interesting, however is aso more stressful. i even stop studies for 1yr. but i nv tell mine parents. i tink they gt alot to worry abt. One less to worry is not a solution but at least not tension.

Life is going harder, my parents are getting older, sometimes my mum talks abt her workplace make my heart beri pain, but i cant really do anything. Gt to work harder, let them worry lesser. Hope my sis will be more sensible. There is too much tings tat I tink in life is helpless abt. I dun really knw if fate is my hand. There is too much to tink abt. So much to learn, yet I dunno if I can adapt to the ever changing world. Many words are mean to be said, but I said too much already. Is silence really golden?

Thur will be the last exam for the year, but yet I dun feel the tension to study for the test. Maybe I am prepared to fail, cos my final report wasn’t finish when I handed up. I really dun tink I can continue… Many ppl juz pass n go.. I dunno if I will get numb one dae by tis feelings.

Sun will be my grandmother’s lunar death anniversary. Another boring family gathering.. has been so many mths since I last visit my grandparents. Bz wif work n sch. I wonder will it ever stop. Since I will be planning to learn driving when I finish my exam. Intend to make a visit on june bah, since I already taken leave. Maybe will change plan if I gt a new job la.

Aug gt stock take again. Dam sian. Every few mths gt new activties dam tiring. Dec-jan account auditing, feb-march iso internal auditing, march-april external auditing, may-june operational auditing, july-aug cycle count, sept-oct iso internal auditing, oct-nov external auditing, nov- dec stock take. Then the cycle repeats again. Argh so sian lor. Hw to breathe wor. Account is changing whole lot of ppl. Young ppl are leaving, those old, hard core old aunties and uncles juz stuck their butt on the chairs. They are juz so $%@$##%^!^#%#@%#!%!@$.... I juz dun understand when their children are working outside like me, hw would they feel abt those aunties and uncles they faced liked us. I always believe, 好人有好报，坏人有报应。对人好，人家也会对你好。However when I start working in tis company, these doesn’t apply anymore. Some ppl juz sux to the core, no matter hw u treat them, they are still the same. Some ppl juz dun care. N I dun wan to care anymore. Is really not up to my judgement anymore. I cant different those who r fake n those who care… I am somehw numb. Adult mind is beri complex. I juz cant understand why simple tings can be so hard to them. Anyway I cant be bothered anymore. Since those ppl I once respected is leaving soon.

I gtg tml nid to wake up early for interview nah….. hope I will update soon…

Hai

2009-04-18T10:46:00.005+08:00

Sian le..
Fail my 1st assignment.
=(
Ltr still gt class.
2nd assignment handed in alr.
Tis module looks harder den it sound.
still gt 3rd assignment n a report.
Left 1 mth to do.
More n more sian...
So much $$ thrown in, dunno if i can really get e cert.
Anyway i started online shop.
Feel free to take a look ha.

Shop

Ho Li Dae

2009-04-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

Yeah tml no nid to work la, cos on leave nah. gt to do assignment liao. sian..

tis few wks been bz... Do different tings different ways.

Is gd to haf a change of work scope aft doing the same tings for 2yr.

things get pretty bored if a Geminian kip doing it.

Hi Hi

2009-03-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

bz bz learning alot of tings at a go.. blur liao hai.. i cant even rmb my user to log in. lucky i gt record sia. if nt tis blog can close dwn liao hoo hoo...

die lor.. assignment haven do sia..going to be dead le.

time is passing so slowly.. sat nid to go sch sian.

following the flow of the motion...

雨过天晴后的天空是否还是一样。彩虹的背后是否隐藏甚么秘密.

IT Fair / CCS

2009-03-15T17:20:00.002+08:00

Juz went to check on hardware zone forum..
Saw a interesting post... abt hw the CCS cum up wif.
CCS meaning chop carrot show lol...
Cos ting bought in IT fair nt really cheap like wad ppl really tink.
But i tink i bought e thumbdrive cheaper den outside pricing.
But i knw la.. SLS can get cheaper pricing. But the ting is tat i dun really like to buy frm SLS unless i gt the time to really check the prices for the tings i wan to buy... N i tink my new mouse was more exp den SLS. But anyway tings are already bought =). No regrets.

Through tis IT fair i learn alot .. frm walking ard so many stalls, squeeing through the crowds.. Thing may not be cheap n gd even wif this kind of crowd...
N tings can be more exp anyway. anyway i am juz plain lazy to go SLS =P...

熊猫的生日

2009-03-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

熊猫生日,

对大家说: 我许了两个愿望,

一个是可以把我的黑眼圈治好,

另外就是希望有一张彩色照片…………

=)

My way of life

2009-03-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

Hmm my parents are coming soon… e peace n quiet will be all gone.

These few daes there hasn’t been much work in office. Bored to death.

Nthing to do but yet muz act bz.. but actually I gt a lot to learn cos nid 2 take over white hair uncle.. but he seem bz or maybe he dun wan to teach me…

Aft I start working I find tat actually u r left alone when working. Everyting u r suppose to pick up on ur own. Nt everyone is willingly to pass their knowledge to u.

Too much have happen last year, so much tat I am lost.. be it at hm, work or sch ting has changed so much. Sometimes I start to question myself wad am I doing. Ting tat I am suppose to do I didn’t do, things tat I wan to I nv do, ting I wan 2 stop I nv stop. Y cant life be simpler. 累了。But I cant stop there… I nid to finish my degree get my driving license. Den maybe I will let go n leave everyting maybe tour ard… earth will nt stop spinning becos of sun.

Nite …

Sometimes things tat happen u juz cant forget it...

HP Lost & Found

2009-02-26T21:55:00.002+08:00

i actually lost my hp in office toilet ytd...
got tease for tat sia >.< so ke lian lor.. hai

i am happy tat i gt bck my hp but i juz kip questioning abt e motive of e person who pick up my hp.

dun get my wrong tat i am "biting e person who help me get bck the hp". but who would off a lost hp when u pick up n plans to return to the owner? i gt so worry abt losing tat hp, i even suspense e line n any connection it has while finding...

Many sae i was lucky to be able to recover the lost, maybe. but i believe wad is mine is mine, wad doesnt belongs to me even if i force it to be in my possession it will not stay long wif me.

maybe i am asking too much. maybe i am drilling corners. maybe maybe...

Updates

2009-02-26T21:31:00.001+08:00

Ok i haf updated some new stuffs in e blog..

My dream pc ~~

2009-02-24T21:27:00.012+08:00

Mother board - ASUS P6T Deluxe

CPU - Intel Core i7-940

Memory - Corsair TR3X6G1600C9 XMS3 Classic DDR3-1600MHz 6GB Kit

Cooler - V8

Power supply - Andyson MT8 AD-M800A2 800W PSU

Hard drive - Western Digital Caviar Black 1 TB, 32MB Cache for Storage

Optical drive - Samsung SATA 22X DVD Rewriter

Casing - CM Stacker 830

Graphic card - Sapphire 4870 1GB

Dad's crazy idea

2009-02-20T22:10:00.004+08:00

Hoo Hoo.. ytd my dad told us he planning to buy a hse in msia.
Hse there dam cheap ar ask me to chip in >.<
e idea was great.. hol can go over n play nah...
bills are cheaper there. means air-con n can on PC whole dae weeee...

But den he sae wan 2 shift n live there.. n lent out e hse we r living nw.
OMG i nv tot of tat bef le.
but hor i c la my frez everydae go in n out for work so tired. but they no choice wan 2 earn $.
den we go learn frm them ar? dun sound like a gd idea to me.
everyting is gd except e jam n security.

to cum in n out of sg n msia is tiring wif all e jam le. dunno wad mine dad is tinking..

Security wise he sae gt guard de. but hw can u reply on a stranger for safety?
Like hw can we reply on others to fight for us in time of war. tat y we haf NS rite..

n since we witness my mum gt rob rite in front of us even though we r walking in big grp i dun tink e plan works.

some crazy idea hur..

anyway i haf settled my sch fee... gt euff to pay me fee, nw i nid 2 save for my D.I.Y rig.. planning to get hmm either mid year IT sales or end of year nah..

Outside i haf alot of plans but in work. i dunno? i dunno wad to look forward to. everydae so sian. dun feel like working.. has been surfing net often in office, dun really care. too bored. n i juz hope i can leave e place soon.

Sch

2009-02-12T20:10:00.002+08:00

BTW my class is starting on 21th tis mth. tink all will be sat classes.

Now hafing a serious headache. Has been on going since bef lunch. I dunno if i can work tml. is getting more n more pain. my head is SPILTING.

Back...

2009-02-12T19:08:00.002+08:00

Ok i haf took a long break frm blogging.. cos alot haf happen. i nid some time to settle myself. Tis year isnt going to easy. juz starting i alr knw. i alr sank into trouble(not those i haf said here). Many companies r closing dwn. Many ppl r losing their jobs. My mum company is closing dwn. Tink in 2 mths time. So ya i cant quit. not nw, n maybe nt tis year. things aint looking good. Gt to pay for the degree course is alr heavy adding wif many other stuffs tings get heavier. Nid money. so i cant sae gdbye yet.

I nid money to continue my degree. i have calculated even wif my current pay my monthly saving is not enough to pay the sch fees. So gt to throw in savings. Haf to reduce Kbox, movie, tech devices D= (i wan to make DIY PC, i gt e specification liao.) Juz bearing wif it for one year n hmm five mths. Everyting ends. N by tat time hope tings will change for better. i wan 2 learn driving. Make my own DIY PC. Make a good one tat can last at least 5years hur. my current like sot sot. sometimes if i on too long the sound get distorted. N things starts to hang. maybe nid to clean e fan. but i cant open e cover le. e screwdriver dun seen to fit in. Tings kip changing. My plan cant stick.

anyway i was bz wif watching csi n playing games la. my dad is addicted to online mahjong. i gt to off his pc so tat he will stop playing n go to slp. Like a kid. Everytime sae we play computer games beri long. he worst la. play kent stop. at least we knw when to stop n rest.

many tings haf changed, i juz hope e me hasnt. Even though i knw my temper is bad. my attitude sux. i am loud. These nid to change, but den if i change. Will Jieying still be Jieying? Will it still be fun like it used to be, even if tings haf alr changed nw. But e ting is nthing is forever.

i wouldnt be blogging often, but i promise i will nt drop tis blog. Maybe i will be closing dwn my friendster a/c. Hasnt been using anyway.
I wouldnt change my msn email. So i am still contactable.

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-28T20:03:00.000+08:00

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2009

2009-01-10T23:24:00.003+08:00

Juz came bck frm mine grandparent's place. played majong n lost $$ la. hai no luck 2dae la. or maybe i wasnt really concentrating cos was listening to e new songs...

Tired played Sims2 frm morning til noon, juz to build e toopid apartment la. dam mafan la. muz kip changing e zone when i change e struture of e apartment. but somehw enjoy designing it more den playing it. so gaming gaming.. Virtual life is more easiler den reality. Reality is always cruel.

Nwadaes i kip feeling tat jieying is no longer jieying. i stop feeling for tings i shld haf react. Do tings tat i myself dunno wad i am doing. I always like to reply or cling to someone for someting like a protection area. but nw i feel tat trust is no longer secured. Is no longer a protection but a time bomb. moving away frm it, i lost my direction... So i am in searching. Searching for a position to place myself.

Sometimes i juz feel tat e burden is so heavy. But i juz cant drop everyting n run away. i knw running is nt a solution, but i gt tired. tired of everying. work, study, family n frez. But i cant even make up e decision to quit my job. My family r against it. My dad entertaining everyone but nt us. mum like so powerless, sis too young. n knw nuts. making them less worrying makes my burden heavier. so sian.

Y is life so complicated. simple stuffs r made complicated. everydae sit in e fish market i dunno if i will go nuts one dae. shouting screaming across e office like nobody's business. i dun mind ppl tok loud, but den image alot of them doing it at e same time. nv try wouldnt understand de. Somemore gt all those actors. act cute la, act clever la, act guai la, act helpful la, act kapo la alot la. too many to list...

Many daes i wan 2 blog but den i feel tat sometimes no point in blogging it. It will onli bring bck e sad memories. i onli wan to kip e happy ones. brain memory nt enuff. Dunno y i seem to become slow n toopid in e nite. n i juz cant rmb tings. maybe someting wrong wif my brain la. dun bother anyway. Juz stepping into 2009 i dun feel beri gd abt it. Tings r nt going smooth at all n going frm bad to worst. I try to kip my smile on, do my everydae stuff properly nt to show e unhappiness cos happiness is like a diease. It can spread ard. Ppl ard can feel it. feelings is someting tat is nt juz abt touch. is abt e underlineing meaning behide it. u may nt agree wif me, cos tis is onli hw i feel.

But my 6th sense gt prob. frez n foe i cant difference. no longer knw hw to trust n who to. Tings r better secure in heart where no one can touch it.

i am tired. hope tml i can still wake up early to bring notty for his walk tat i promise him juz nw. he gt gd memory nah. he will rmb wad i sae. >.<

Touching ~~ sob

2009-01-03T11:14:00.000+08:00

他，忙于工作，每天早出晚归。

她，结婚后就辞去工作，每天呆在家里。

他，拼命工作，努力赚钱，为的是两人可以有个更好的未来。

她，辞去工作，全职顾家，为的是守护两人幸福的现在。

他很爱她，她很爱他。

他很老实，她对他在外面工作很放心，绝对信任他。

她很独立，他对她照顾自己很有信心，绝对放心她。

每天夜里，当他夜归时，煲里还有温着地炖汤。

每天早上，当他起床时，桌上都有温暖的咖啡。

这样的日子，从结婚后开始，持续了三年。

她从不过问他的工作，只是知道他在越升越高，日子渐渐富裕起来。

他从不过问她的家事，只是知道家里井井有条，家庭依旧和谐幸福。

他不喜欢电脑，每天工作就对着电脑 N 小时了，回家决不碰电脑。

她不喜欢电脑，每天却在独处的时候对着电脑 N 小时，非常忙碌。

直到有一天，他接到一通电话。

' 请问是陈先生吗？你的太太晕倒被送入院，她的子宫癌已经是末期了，请你来见他最后一面。 '

晴天霹雳，他赶到医院，看着她悲痛欲绝的问她为什么不告诉他。

她看着他，对着他微笑，告诉他她爱他然后微笑着永远闭上眼睛。

他失去了生活中心，他失去了人生方向，他失去了他爱的她。

他后悔，他懊恼，他怨恨他自己，为什么没花多一点时间陪她，去了解她。

妻子出殡后，他独自回到空无一人的家里，厨房里不再有炖汤。

他坐在客厅里发呆，想哭却哭不出来。

这时，他看到了客厅里的电脑，他想看看照片，这些他仅剩和她美丽的回忆。

第一次开启家里的电脑，看到桌面上有个叫《老公，是我》的文件夹，里面有 1095 个录影片段。

电脑荧幕上出现了一张熟悉的脸孔 ~

扬声器传来熟悉的声音 ~

他的眼泪，终于决堤而出。

' 老公，是我啦 ~~ 从今天开始由我陪伴你过吧 ~~ 不过你要答应我，一天只能看一个哦 ~~ 我们终于结婚了，你知道吗？能嫁给你是我一生最大的幸福，我会把每天发生的事情记录在一段录影日记里，几年后的结婚纪念日拿给你看，一定很有趣的 ~................'

影片接下来就是她絮絮不休的说着一些生活上的琐事和他们之间的事情，他看了看影片日期，结婚的那一天 ~

第一次，他违背了深爱的她的意愿，一个又一个的影片看了下去 ~

' 老公，你很忙碌，要好好照顾身体哦 .........'

' 老公，今天难得你陪我去购物，我好开心哦 .........'

' 老公，一周年纪念日了，谢谢你的礼物，对不起还没能给你生个孩子，我们再努力吧 ......'

' 老公，我身体很不舒服，不懂为什么常常会肚子痛，明天我自己去看医生好了 ......'

' 老公，医生说我患上了子宫癌，建议我切除，你说他是不是傻的，我还想要孩子呐 .......'

' 老公，我有乖乖做治疗的，药都有吃，不过我不要做化疗，剃了头就不美了，你一定会笑我的 .......'

' 老公，医生又叫我切除子宫了，他说不然就太迟了，我痛骂了他一顿，这家伙不知好歹，总是要破坏我们的计划 .......'

' 老公，我看我应该不怎么行了，请原谅我不告诉你，因为我想你永远记住我美好的一面，这些事情我自己来就好了 .......'

' 老公，我们结婚都已经三年了，我想我是撑不住了，我不在后，你要好好生活，炖汤的食谱都在电脑里，咖啡的冲泡方法也在里面，一切都为你准备好了，你要好好学着照顾自己。 '

' 老公，如果你一天看一个录影，现在已经三年了，你应该习惯了没有我的生活吧？是时候把我收在回忆里自己走出来了，你的人生还很漫长，找个爱你和你爱的人继续生活吧。 '

' 老公，应该是这几天了，我知道时间到了。不过我猜想你应该不会那么老实一天看一个影片吧，看到这里你也累坏了啦，我也很累了，是时候离开了。记得，好好继续生活啊。你还记得吗？你说过你会爱我一辈子的，我也回答你我会用我的一辈子去爱你。现在我们的诺言都实现了，我要离开了，我的确用了我的一辈子去爱你。你也别难过了，你已经爱了我一辈子了，这样的我们，很幸福不是吗？ ....... 最后一次了，老公，对不起，我爱你 .....'

看完了 1095 个影片，他不知道已经过了多久，泪水流了又干，干了又流。

打开窗帘，温暖的阳光照了进来，他对着晴朗的天空，轻轻说了句 ~

' 老婆，对不起，我爱你 ~'

Bangkok big fire

2009-01-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

stepping to a new year a nightmare started at bangkok.
60ppl die frm e fire...

let's all pray for those who lost their love ones on this very first dae of 2009.

We r grateful to be alive even though we may nt be getting e best of all world.

life is nt prefect. no one is. life is unfair. tat is life. wad to do~~ haiz

daydreaming dae ~~

2009-01-02T21:23:00.003+08:00

2dae beri sotong la. dunno isit eat too much sotong liao. i go accidently del my dec accrual argh.. e most impt mth, most impt dae I do such toopid ting =( . spent e whole dae trying 2 recover wad I lost…

But I knw sometings tat is lost can nv be recover. Tings tat r broken even when mended can nv be e same again.

不是每样东西可以破了再补过。补了也不可能回到从前。

getting more n more sian of working... restless.

Happy new year~~

2009-01-01T04:48:00.002+08:00

Ok i am full frm e steamboat...

n i haven slp nw cos nt everyone is aslp.

or i dun feel safe slping wif so many unknwn ppl..

e feeling is juz so diff frm camps n chalet...

somehw is juz mine hse.. haiz...

slpless nite..

is going 2 5am... i am tired.

Mine son is still making alot of noise.

maybe u r rite i dunno hw i shld face it ....

but i dun wan to lose it !!!

2008-12-30T02:16:00.004+08:00

sian cant slp again. hasnt been in mine best mood e pass few daes.

been lazy 2 blog, anyway i dunno if i can post tis out anot la. normally when i blog using hp most of e time nt posted out de

hmm let's do some flashback frm where i stp. i tink my last post is on e stk take buffet den nthing much la. exam n gt bz.
i am tinking if i failed both modules i will drop out la. dun wan 2 waste e $ since econ nt doing well liao.

den start 2 play maple again. nt mapleing den watching show. nt watching show den read lor. gt to relax, work so sian lor hai. no heart le.

nxt dong zhi, went park mall 2 eat some buffet wif my family nthing nice. but gt pick up for some toopid china dvd frm e lucky draw. i was e 1st 2 be called 0.0. anyway e space super small la. still muz share table lor dotz. nv stepping in again.

work work work for e nxt few daes..,

xmas dae. merry xmas. my xmas greetings cum late la cos i normally sms greetings n nt blog greetings cos nt all my frez knw tis blog la. n nt all will be free 2 tag ard.

anyway went 2 my aunt place for xmas pt cum family gathering. actually tis mth i didnt go 2 my grandparent's place tat often la. bz nah.

lol nearly lost e post again. xmas pt was fun didnt expect 2 get any present la n i gt 1st prize 4 e lucky draw wor... teapot set nah lol. anyway i gave it 2 my grandparents la cos i dun tink i will use it. gt i lady bag frm one of my aunt la but too small la kent replace e bag tat spolit 2dae. e whole zip ting came off. =( gt to go bag n shoe hunt one of these dae when i gt mood. normally i cant find tings i like when hunting lol i spot when window shopping or drifting ard. but den i gt a lappy bag juz wad i haf been hunting. normally nt so lucky 2 get ting i wan 4 xmas la, so happy nah.

den gt 2 be work work work again... e gd ting is my parents will be going batam tml nono actually 2dae la cos nw morning liao haha. so nobody disturb la. but scare morning too quiet kent wake up 4 work den mati liao.

last but nt least advance greeting for e new year 09. cos i dunno when i will be blogging again maybe tml? maybe nxt year so happy new year to all who r reading tis blog be it frez or foe. hope 4 a better yr even though i knw it is nt going 2 be happening. juz hope n pray hard. n i wan a nice steamboat to end e year hur. btw, wen i haven seen or ask my mum abt e xmas card. sure u didnt get mine address wrong? or ur card too nice mine mum kept it? or my notty took it 2 play cos its cute?

ma ma hope u r doing fine up e sky...i really miss u. plz pray hard for us....

*ma ma refer to mine ah ma.

又是一天

2008-12-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

so tired juz gt bck frm taka. go eat company buffet la. told us $40+ but tink onli $30+ la. always like to bluff us. anyway e food ok lor. buffet stuff is always up avg de la. anyway is free so i dun complaint much la....

2dae dam sian early morning being called in liao.. i knw someting will happen. fri i alr knw juz i dunno wad, so while i wasnt ard some1 go offer to help me complaint to my boss. den end up i am e one stab. y ppl muz kapo sia. tis stab tink will leave me bleeding for sometimes.... big damage...

e gd ting is i will be bz wif crosby shipment. n being bz kip me frm tinking.. tired of putting up a defence. 有苦难言. even if i sae out nobody can help. onli more problem arise.. haiz....

laughing is all i wan to do these daes.. but is getting harder to even smile... so many bad news.. no gd new. nthing. nw i onli look forward to xmas. maybe a family gathering will bring some light 2 e path infront. i hope e path is still there...

anyway i had a gd laugh tis evening. thanks. gdnite...

Pics of zoo

2008-12-14T14:06:00.005+08:00

Pics at e zoo la.

these pics r taken using G900i camera nt tat gd

pic nt focus cos i forget to on it >.<...

Polar bear so gd lor!! Better den me le

Polar bear

So many ppl waiting for e show

E rainforest show...

Feeding time ~~

E boat named aft white tiger papa

Guess wad. tis is actually a " kampong hse" in e kidz world at zoo. is fake de haha.

Tis stick insect believe to hide in cupboard of e kampong hse.

The famous white tiger. e smaller 1 is e daughter laying on e rock.

e papa is sitting in front facing us.

White tiger papa Omar

Actually i wan 2 upload more pics le la. but beri slow wor, den i tired la. play too late ytd liao hai

Zooooooo.....

2008-12-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

hai.. 2dae go zoo. sound lame. hasnt been going zoo for donkey years. cos hmm..
like wad all tink when i told my cousin i was in zoo. hw old liao? still go zoo? gt special event ar? lol tis is e ans i gt bck ok. aiyo if is me aso same la. haha. cos to me onli pri sch go zoo de la. aft tat sian liao. still nid 2 walk so long n so smelly la.... unless i am tourist la. den different ma. singaporean go singapore zoo c wad la >.<.

still rmb e kid's playground there. den gt kfc. gt pony ride. animal farm blalala... tat was when i am in pri sch ok. 7-9 year old bah. soooooo long liao. more den 10 years liao wor. nw change liao lor. gt merry-go-round la, water playground, n ben & jerry. others i dunno la. nv went all e way in cos nthing interesting nah. no kids ard >.<.

den go c e famous white tiger. sooo closer up la. a family of 3 la. i onli rmb e papa's name call osmar. i gt take a pic of a "boat" named aft him la. den e white tiger daughter so lazy le. like my son like tat. kip laying there nv move. e papa tiger go wake her up. she dun care her papa lor! so funny. i tot onli i do such ting haha. even white tiger daughter aso find e papa noisy. hack care him wahahaha !!

den kip taking e tram ard e zoo la. onli gt 4 stops so kip cing e same ting lor... zoo still nthing much la. onli nw looks nicer, easiler to find the way. wouldnt get lost so easily. last time go zoo muz bring map if nt kent find e way de. den go watch e rainforest show la. nice storyline la. but beri fast finish la, den rain hai. kent go anywhere liao. raining so mafan lor. tram all so many ppl.. gt take boat aso la. but kent c anyting de lor. all trees la. nt even bird can be seen. den still gt monkeys la. so many kind lor. i wan c cheetah la. but dunno where kip missing. den gt polar bear lor. e polar bear dam gd la. still gt special air-con rm for them. better den me lor =(

ok la i wan slp liao.. tml if i am nt bz mapling will upload some pic of e animals in e zoooo...

but i doubt i will be free hahaha.. tml chiong 2exp le. i juz brought a-cash le, kent waste. na de i so enthu play maple lor.... i wan my purple bandana!!!

nxt coming exam tink is gone case liao haiz.. worst den english paper. dunno wad kind of hint e lecturer gib. so chim.

xmas is coming to twn. i juz feel tis dec is so different frm e past. so no mood la. dun haf e yeah hol is coming mood. so strange. heard more bad news 2dae. haiz spoilt my aftnoon nap. making me slpless. ok la. continue tml bah nite nite ~~

Morning ~~

2008-12-12T07:36:00.002+08:00

2dae nt working, but still wake up so early. hai. my bad habit. waking up early every dae. i actually hate tat, nthing much to do in e morning. time seem to pass slower in e morning. but i luv e morning freshness. air feels so light n clean in e morning.

ltr hafing exam. 1st paper. tink tis round of exam is making me dam tired. no mood to study nvm too much to tink cant slp. i dunno. i juz kip telling myself aft tis left 6 more modules onli. beri fast, 1 more year n done. is really nt easy ...

aft 2dae's exam maybe going 2 buy xmas present. no time shopping. work kent finish here jam there jam. dec used to be a joyful mth. cos is sch hol n xmas dae. but nw seems to be a horrable mth. year end closing on top of mth end closing, xmas pt, exam, stock take adj.... so many tings to do. gib me some air gib me some space. i nid to breathe. i am feeling like wad i used to do in swimming competition. taking a breathe n chiong all e way to touch the line. forcing myself to stay under e water as long as possible. Juz hit e point n end it. tired.

argh hate to sae. but i gt to stop n go bck to study. sian... reading those u knw me i dunno u notes dam sian le. i dunno hw much i can rmb aft studying. i dunno hw much i can write 2 pg per qn. hw long haf i nt been writing tis long? 5qn. 10pgs 3h le. is easlier to kill me man. dun torture kill me plz..

Someone...

2008-12-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

You are Everything To Somebody
Right now at this very minute-----------

someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you
someone
cares about you
someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you
someone
wants to be with you
someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided
someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right
someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes
someone
wants to give you a gift
someone
think you ARE a gift
someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot
someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you
someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts
someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on
someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you
someone
wants to protect you
someone
would do anything for you
someone
wants to be forgiven
someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

somebody
values your advice
someone
wants to tell you how much they care
someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms
someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms
someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of
you

someone
can't wait to see you
someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel
someone
wants to be with you
someone
hears a song that reminds them of you
someone
wants you to know they are there for you
someone
is glad that you're their friend
someone
wants to be your friend
someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is wishing that you would notice them
someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you
someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you
someone
needs you to send them this letter

someone
needs your support
someone
needs you to have faith in them
someone
needs you to let them be your friend

someone
will cry when they read this

wad's up

2008-12-10T19:21:00.003+08:00

ok beri long i nv intro some nice nice show liao.
cos i am bored frm reading notes la.
i dunno y i cant seem to focus in reading them.
nt as gd as i used to in sec sch, whereby i can sit there whole dae writing notes n wifout using internet lol.
nw beri hard hai. no computer can die le. >.< bad habit. but hard to change.
too hard core liao. but i knw tings can changed if force. cos i used to be hard core gamer aso. but i changed i drop off.

Muz watch.

我的亿万面包

by :林依晨，郑元畅

Gt shuai ge ok so muz watch la. actually i haven watch haha, cos haven dl finish le. onli knw gt 郑元畅 hee.

不良笑花
by :杨丞琳, 潘玮柏

lame n funny show la. going go be broadcast on chan U soon. i tink is e nxt nicer show aft 命中注定我爱你. i haven finish watching yet but i knw taiwan side end liao. my sis using my desktop playing game kent dl =(

无敌珊宝妹
by : 张栋梁, 郭采洁
Nt beri nice show la. but hmm somehw touching at e bck, storyline weird weird de. but still ok la.

篮球火
by : 言承旭,罗志祥,吴尊
Hmm basketball show. alot of lame actions. e songs is nice la.

Yeah 我是 Superman
Yeah 我是 Superman
Yeah 你是 Loser

2dae gt ppl sae i always let ppl misunderstand me le. really? sms wise sry i always dun put my fullstop la. like tat aso dun understand meh lol. sms me muz test 默契 mah =x. long liao den will understand wad i mean lor. haha. so dun complaint ok. lalala. complaint nt accepted. =P

i go bck n read note liao la. sian.
haven eat dinner le.
sat go zoo for family dae wor. any1 wan to join?

Awwwww.....

2008-12-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

Wooo luv the weather...

actually whenever i used awwww.. i am tinking abt the person who taught me to use tis. n he always does it when he tok.

Cool weather like tis is best to stay at hm n slp.
mine son is hiding in his bed too lazy to get up.
i am too lazy to bathe him cos weather too cold. scare ltr he sick =x.

the wind seem to be blowing like in genting hur, like i am in hol nw.
feel so happy n gd to be hiding under the warmth blanket.
Juz hope tml nv arrvied. tml no nid to go work.
everyting juz stop 2dae. n end nw.
Hope juz to rmb everyting tat is gd n those bad tings r being blown away by e wind ~~.

bb ppl...
gd nite my frez

Maple - New job Pirate

2008-12-08T21:06:00.003+08:00

wahooo...

has been mapling e whole dae =x. i knw i shldnt but... haven been feeling like mapling for so long nah.

mine hermit is stuck at lvl 90 la. e dmg is still so >.<. dun tink i can make it to 4th job as dark lord if i rmb correctly. beri long nv go in liao la. dun even rmb hw my char look like.

nw playing new char in e new gateway under malaysia. my sis ask me y so bo liao play diff gateway. y dun play aquila. den i can pump $$ 2 train my pirate bo, ya la i toopid. cos was tinking new server easiler to find frez den can pq n make frez bo. but somehw i forget i didnt haf e time i used to haf. mapling til midnite. or even overnite. nwadaes i play game is onli once a blue moon. when i gt e mood den train. last time is chiong all e way. dif time dif way. my kind of timing hard to find ppl pei to train. cos e timing nt stable den lvling becomes a problem.

Pirate nt easy to train la, but do henesys pq lvl dam fast. nw alr hmm lvl19 bah. same like sin lor, sin use claw n stars. pirate use gun n bullets. u knw ah ma tat bang! bang! someting like tat lor. so cool. but my sis sae ugly lol, e clothes r those raggy type tink she dun like ha. maybe she will go bck n play her cleric soon. her cleric seem like taking forever to do 3rd job. nw tink onli 7x >.<. so slow la. if i play like i used to nw 10x liao lor =D.

Me killing piggies at henesys rainforest. My IGN : xjuzagalx.
My hermit: juzagal. can retired liao lol...

anyone interested to maple in the new server can contact me aft 19 dec =D.
Add me in buddy if u r playing.
Aqulia : Juzagal ( Main / retired) n many more ...
Foxax : xjuzagalx ( noob / pirate ) Spare me some noob stuff hee ..
i dun touch on other servers even thought i haf char there =P

exam is comin

2008-12-08T16:43:00.003+08:00

hai.. tis 2 daes hasnt been studying.. cos dam no mood la. exam is someting i hate most abt studying. studying is gd. but exam juz sux.

coming fri will be e 1st paper. den nxt fri n done.

2dae's weather dam gd. gd for slp n slacking. but nt gd me. studying in cold weather means cant focus. ok la all craps, juz dun feel like studying.

fri my new table is aso coming.. gt to pack for e new table. den rush for exam. timing beri rush.

no news yet hmm... still waiting.. dec 18 is coming. dec 19 last dae of exam. n declare myself free frm sch for e time being. e nxt sem is coming. i dunno wad lies in front. i dunno if i can struggle thru these. going for class is commitment. doing assignment is endurance. taking exam is a torture. >.<.

my hand dam pain, is still bleeding. notty son bite again. hai. cant seem to handle him. i wonder did i make a rite choice sometimes.

do u ever made a choice n stick wif it? do u regret wad u haf chosen?

sentosa plan

2008-12-04T21:30:00.002+08:00

hmm let's meet 9am at jp. den go take mrt go sentosa.

1st stop we go Palawan Beach, any1 gt beach ball? wen will be asked to bring frisbee =D. So we go play wif sand n water 1st la. those wan go suntanning aso can la. Those who knw cycling can cycle too.

Den we will haf a late lunch at e koufu. den nxt stop go Sentosa Luge & Skyride. tis will take some time to chit chat cos e queuing time like quite long la... if u all r nt tired we can go Mount Imbiah n take a look at remnants of British pre-World War II gun emplacement tat is still standing today. or slack at Siloso Beach.

Any comments? wan 2 change e plan plz tag.. will try to update tml if i am nt oting...

Sentosa

阴天

2008-12-03T20:02:00.001+08:00

End work alr. So tired 2dae. Tink my face look black black de. Cos yiyi sae me huo yao wei beri heavy nah. Ya I agree 2dae I dam nt happy la. Early morning go office c my table so messy alr sian haf Den e cutie pie still call me in to listen to his fei hua. Find bones in e fish bone. Problem is always there juz tat nobody cares. Nw auditor check gt problem again find me. Dam sian lor. Always like tis. Angry angry… yiyi ask me cool dwn few more daes onli… argh I dunno I really dunno.. if I dun make use of such ting 2 blow up my temper I dunno if I really gt e courage to throw tat letter. I muz make use of my gan qing yong shi time to do such ting n hope I dun regret aft tat.

Den so much work to do but I dun feel like doing. Mood spoiled. Didn’t go for e exhibition aso. Cos I dun feel like. Beri sian la. Always like tis. Ppl call for sale, w/h n a/c. but I dunno where I stand. Juz dun belong to any of them. Always left out. So be it la. Less trouble aso. Tml another sian dae. Wan 2 start studying de, but I dunno y I feel so tired. Tink I didn’t slp well ytd. Tml “The Tales of Beedle The Bard” will be out. Can go collect e bk liao… so long nv sit dwn n read a gd bk le. Miss daydreaming in e bk. All e time pass by beri fast. But I dun seem to haf e time to enjoy reading anymore.

Ytd wad toking 2 moon, she sae wan 2 meet up. N she miss my humorous n laughter. ya I miss it too. All e fun n laughter. It’s getting lesser n lesser. But I hope 10-20 years down e road ppl still rmb me as e crapper. Crap n joke ard time seem to pass faster. I once read some articles tat sae, ppl who can bring laughter to others can feel more happy n blessed. I hope so. Anyway, sometimes I dun joke on suppose juz happen tat u all tink is funny n I make it even funnier. U knw add salt n pepper to e spices to make it more colourful. But wad I miss most r e time spent when we used to go blocks to blocks to give out flyers. Even though ppl scold me in blog. But I still tink tat is e best moments of my life. I mean there r other times when tings r good n enjoying every moment wif e ppl ard but tat job is e 1st time I feel we really work as a team even though we spilt our ways when start our poly. Those r e times where we r still simple n native. N memoires are always there no matter wad happens… even though some frezship may disappear as the time goes by. But we make new frez n broader out our networks. Maintaining frezship is a hard job. Sometimes when I try too hard tings juz go worst. Maybe I shall let go n let nature leads e way. Maybe confusion maybe a bright clear path… maybe maybe…

Still waiting for news. hope to hear some good news soon… HP faster ring la !!!!

(p.s wen ar if u r reading tis hor, I tink xmas dun bk chalet liao. Beri mafan den muz fight for space aso. So I tink juz go sentosa c gt wad ting to play lor. Maybe bring beach ball la. Juz pray dun rain can liao weee.)

楊丞琳 - 帶我走

2008-12-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

Xmas

2008-12-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl, cum on. cum up wif some planning for xmas. i will do e contacting hur..

still gt beelay, boon leong, li ching nv reply me... where r they?? anyone care to find out?

agnes suggest to go sentosa alr...

n i can c jes cfn will follow along...

but nid some planning here.

wen will be hafing dnd tat dae. so maybe we will book a rm there n camp overnite if u ppl wants to n it depend on e pricing for sure...

so ppl if u gt any comments plz tag if u cant find me =)..
i will bz studying n working tis few wks. but if u can find me i will sure reply.

ok i will be going out nw ... be bck 2nite. hope i will get some gd news frm u ppl hur. bb

bz

2008-12-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

y does everyone look so bz? can someone stop n rest. tok to me. i onli act bz.

男人女人 - 許茹芸 & 阿穆隆

2008-12-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

I am bck~~

2008-12-01T19:07:00.001+08:00

Ha, juz came bck frm work nt long ago... Actually was tinking of oting.. but didn’t feel like staying bck. Gt lots of work to do. Hai. Seem endless n pointless too. Everyone is rushing. I dunno y? tink I piss e L queen of juz nw. cos she kip rushing to finish e ridge shipment. Wan to send her goods out by tis wk. den the other two cutie pies wan me to finish e adj by sat aso. Everyting by tis wk. there is onli one me, hw many tings can I do at a time. Ask for help again? Sometimes is nt tat I dun wan 2 ask for help, but I dun wan 2 do double work. 1st gt to teach hw 2 do, den gt to prepare the stuffs for them n check e progress. Lastly check for mistakes. If I do myself I juz gt to report my progress, den can ask ppl to check for my mistake. So is a matter of choice…

Daily work seem easy but too of these unwanted n unneeded pressure n stress, no matter hw fast I do mine tings, it will get delay. People juz dun bother abt others, like tat L queen. Wan den wan, no nid to bother abt others.

Sometimes I feel no point in pushing myself so hard to get tings done. Maybe I shall juz let ppl complaint, maybe doing a job too well isn’t tat gd at all. Ppl wan more frm u when they tink u can do it. But e more they wan e harder I nid to push. But I gt my limits too. I gt exams coming n I dunno if I gt time to study.

I am alr beri disappointed wif e company alr. Was toking to ye zi juz nw. she was dam rite. E feeling of being cheated. U promise me tis n ask me to go along wif it. N den changed it. I am so angry tat dae tat I didn’t even wan 2 tok. I scare I may juz erupt n I dun wan 2 be disturbed. I am sry. Maybe sometimes I didn’t make tings clear n confuse ppl but I knw my temper. I knw I cant control my temper, so I nid to get silence. To calm myself, if nt I cant really do anyting. Nthing. Everytime I tok abt tis I get angry. Y muz they onli take action when some1 drop e letter. E promises they make make my heart cold. E nxt time I drop I will juz shut myslf off. No craps nthing will get in anymore, juz like nw.

Sometimes I feel tat I shall juz brush through life. Taking tings lightly. Dun be so responsible n serious. No one bother anyway. Who cares wad others r doing. Relationships can change anytime. No frez is always true. nt even family… y make life hard for myself? Y bother so much? Sometimes I hate myself for being so busybody. Kip quiet n do my stuff dun bother abt others. Life will still go on fine. I will learn. Learn to kip quiet. Control my temper. Maybe when I knw hw to kip quiet my temper wouldn’t show so much. Maybe maybe… nthing is forever.

天下没有不散的宴，没有永远的永远。

New blogskin

2008-11-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. been like blogging on sun ard 9+ for e past few wks...

Been bz n tired tis wk. stk take n mth end closing. euff to drain me off.

Starting nxt wk will be a brand new wk. classes has come to an end. Exam will be nxt. dec will pass fast. everyting juz flash by aft stk take n den a beginning of a new year. A new start too I hope.

I mean get out of e situation n start a new. I knw I haf been saeing tis for nearly 2 yrs, but nw I am still saeing it. Ok I aso dunno wad will happen nxt. I mean tings r hard to predict n hard to foresee. I can onli try my best. N nw e market is beri bad. So .. tings get worst.

But as daes pass tis feelings get stronger. E feeling to get out. Sometimes I juz feel like shouting in front of them asking them 2 cut tat crap. Stop acting. U r nt cute. In fact irritating to the core. Sometimes I am afraid one dae I maybe like them. Fakers. Environment and people can affect one’s direction, feelings and tinking. I dun wan 2 be affected.

Shall stop here. My sis is nagging 2 ask me slp…

Changed my skin. Hope for something new.

Surrender

2008-11-25T22:14:00.002+08:00

brain vs heart. Who wins who suffer?

juz hand in unfinish assignment. cant really continue doing. too tired to continue, maybe i am nt e most tired ppl. some r still stuck in office nw. i wonder wad will happen tml...

i am juz glad i am nt e chosen one.

i hate to surrender but i haf no choice but to let go....

dead meat

2008-11-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

hai so bz n stress 2dae. kip rushing n rushing. hope to clear everyting 2dae but tings kip coming in. n i tot of doing my assignment during lunch break end up onli write 2 sentence den went bck to work. so many tings to clear can. pending here n there...

Is so rare for me 2 ot nwadaes. cos sch started. n tings get tired. no extra $$ hur... assignment still nt done lor. sian. i 4get to bring my thumbdrive hm la. toopid me. nw i dunno wad to do. haiz.

saw e cone 2dae. tink beri long of getting it bck, since it is no longer appreciated. shld collect it tml morning if i am able to wake up early which i haven been able to do so. Sch is tiring. i wonder when e nxt sem is starting... tinking too far ahead since e exam haven even started lol... hope for a nice break. to take a rest frm this suffocated lifestyle. hope nxt sem gt nt so much of assignments. cos i knw cfn sure gt assignment one. juz e amount onli...

tml is mth end closing liao.. for e nxt few daes wouldnt be able to be online... since i will be moving ard the w/h. even i online i wouldnt be staring for the screen long. ha. so no msn for me e nxt 3-5daes. hope stock take faster end. feb faster come.

Start sending out resume again.. dunno isit too early. if gt reply aso dunno hw. hai but nevertheless, shall test out the market bef dropping e letter. my parents wouldnt allow me to leave if i cant find another one, looking at the current situation. if nt hope eric can kip tat job open for me =D. but e place is far hai... nvm let's wait n c. wad i haf is time. wad i dun haf is $. i am looking out for opportunities.

When a door is closed, another window is opened somewhere. Juz nid the patience n endurance to wait for the right timing.

Rihanna - Unfaithful

2008-11-23T22:12:00.002+08:00

Ryan Cabrera - True

2008-11-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

李聖傑 - 癡心絕對

2008-11-23T21:58:00.001+08:00

Assignment

2008-11-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

dam sian. still haven finish e toopid assignment. onli 400+ words nid 2k nah. tue muz hand in liao. haiz... dunno wad 2 write. kip writing e same ting copy n paste.

tml is a new wk again... last wk of sch. den dec exam.. mth end coming... more n more bz...

actually gt alot of tings to blog de but i didnt blog it when is on my mind. nw i cant rmb. i gt STM hur. cant blame me.

bought my table at last. coming on 2nd wk of dec. nt e glass type i wan but bo bian. limited space limtied choice. e measurement r rare to find. e selfish one juz dun gib up on his rm. waste a rm for singing. wad to do. juz hope i can move out when e time comes. hate to be force. but under his roof u cant do much.

Class

2008-11-22T14:12:00.002+08:00

haiz.. dunno wad happen juz dun feel like going for class. drag n drag went out abt 1.30. when e class starts at 2pm. n i nid abt 1h15min to rch. so sure was late.

den bef i even rch e bustop. 198 zooom pass me. yeah great. nw i am even later. So was sitting at e bustop waiting. I am nt sure wad i was waiting. 20min ltr bus came. n i let it zooom pass me again. so ok i made up my mind nt to go. no exam tip for tis module.

So i am bck in front of my PC watching CSI on tuduo. Great to be a student. maybe my dad juz piss me off.

Last post 2dae.

2008-11-21T20:00:00.002+08:00

Tis will be my last post 2dae... continue posting interesting stuff nxt time..

Juz scan through my mails n saw tis mail it reminds me to be strong. Be strong @ times of losing. Aft xmas will CNY, i dunno hw tis CNY dinner will be like. 1st year without my grandmother ard, i dun even knw if there will be any gathering. My aunt sae bef when e elderly is gone in e family, so as e bond. i dunno hw true is tat. but juz by tinking of it, my eyes r getting wet. maybe maybe nxt yr will be a harsh yr. We gt to be strong tgt. i dunno if e sender rmb n kip tis mail. but i juz hope those words remain true.

Somehw time pass so fast......... June is coming again soon den i expected.

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

2008-11-21T19:58:00.000+08:00

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

Both Friends Will Think The Other Is Busy
And Will Not Contact Thinking It May Be Disturbing
As Time Passes
Both Will Think Let The OTher Contact
After That each Will Think Why I Should Contact First ?
Here Your Love Will Be Converted To Hate
Finally Without Contact The Memory Becomes Weak
They Forget Each Other.
So Keep In Touch With All And Pass This TO All Your Friends... I Don`t Want To Be One Of This Kind.

朋友

2008-11-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

第一個想到的是~你
什麼叫做緣分呢？一見鍾情？相知相惜？平平淡淡？日久生情？我想，只有真正努力的人，才能遇上好緣分。請把這三個感謝轉寄給你認為是'好朋友'的朋友吧~~~ 親愛的朋友，想對你說三個感謝 ... ..................

第一個謝謝你讓我走入你的生命,作你的朋友,
或許我不是你最精采的,但是我總是盡力作到最好

第二個謝謝你願意走進我的生命,扮演朋友的角色,
或許你不是唯一最好的,但卻是我生命中最精采的

第三個謝謝你這一路走來,很多的包容、安慰、關心、用心......

所有的深刻都在你給我的回憶裡. 在這美麗的天空裡....你在想誰呢?? 我就當然想起你啦--

親愛的好朋友，有緣做到朋友是很難得的，

只要大家將心交出來，沒有事情是不可能的，不過千萬不要勉強，right？
把這message送給你喜歡和關心的人~~ 當然也可以送回來喔^__^~~ 我等你
人的思緒是複雜而凌亂的...當夜深人靜時..你會想起誰?.. 我會想起....與各位認識的種種點滴滴... 直到我們都年老時...是否會像現在這樣...坐在電腦前互訴心聲?.. 我想...到那時候...大家都已經老到無法打字了吧...^_^.....
不管如何.....我們永遠是最真誠相對的好朋友...如果您同意我的說法..請把這個訊息回傳給您的朋友... 讓他們知道...你是多麼的在乎他們..^_^ 當你收到的信越多~代表在乎你的人越多~ 不要忘記傳給我..I miss you!.....*^_^*

Banana power

2008-11-21T19:49:00.001+08:00

Never, put your banana in the refrigerator!!!
This is interesting.
After reading this, you'll never look at a banana in the same way again.

Bananas contain three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber.
A banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy.
Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout.
No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes.
But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. I
t can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills - eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke. Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from heartburn, try eating a banana for soothing relief. Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system. Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at wor k leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach. Temperature control: Many other cultures see bananas as a 'cooling' fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In Thailand , for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature. Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood enhancer tryptophan.

Smoking &Tobacco Use: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes: According to research in The New England Journal of Medicine, eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%!
Warts: Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of banana skin and place it on the wart, with the yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place with a plaster or surgical tape!

Moody

2008-11-21T19:31:00.002+08:00

beri sian 2dae din feel like working. but i gt a pile on my table. yet i still didnt stay to finish up. cos i dun wan 2 stay really tired.

somehw i had alot of tings 2 blog when i was tinking while bathing. nw sitting in front of e desktop tat i had nt been using cos my sis hogging it. i cant really type out. or shld i sae. i blank out.

Time is juz passing so slowly. 2dae e GM annouce bonus will be done in Feb which was 1mth later den wad my boss said. i juz dunno if i will get e full 4mths. feeling someting nt rite somewhere. maybe i am too quiet 2dae. until i scare myself off? I hate slience. tat y my mp3 is beri impt. it kip me frm being in slience. Juz saw some rare ppl oting 2nite, juz feeling werid. maybe life is bck 2 normal. but nt for me. e feeling somehw is still nt rite.

Read some of my previous mails while searching for passed assignment for other ppl reference, saw interesting mails. hmm.. ltr i will post up 1 by 1. haf fun reading.. my eyes r hurting. i dunno y. tis morning dam pain n kip tearing. tink i gt 2 rest more..

I am still sad i didnt get a reply. Shall tis slience continue i may leave eariler den expected. haiz. i hate slience. Sry tat i juz type tings out of random. cos i dunno wad i wan 2 sae n express. my eyes getting tired alr.

Morning ~~

2008-11-21T06:53:00.002+08:00

hai, juz feeling moody. bargain for an offer previously n nw lost a chance. Didn’t get my appraisal, felt cheated again.

Words r nt mean for my ears. See no evil, hear no devil.

Hopes r gone…

dun haf e energy to go work early these few wks. dam sian. dam tired. juz gt no motivation.

Where is the rainbow? 红、橙、黄、绿、青、蓝、紫那一色是我的？

2008-11-20T21:22:00.003+08:00

彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

Blue corals my fav bubble tea LOL...

2008-11-20T21:16:00.003+08:00

珊瑚海 - 周杰伦/Lara

男:海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈
女:你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在
男女:那难过无声慢了下来
男女:汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海
男:转身离开分手说不出来
女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白
女:你我都不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男女:热情不再笑容勉强不来
女:你的笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海
男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀
女:贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男:等花儿开
男女:我们也已经无心再猜
女男:脸向海风
咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来
男:转身离开分手说不出来
女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害
女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白.
女:你我都不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男:热情不在笑容勉强不来
女:你的笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

Coming daes...

2008-11-20T20:54:00.002+08:00

2dae is presentation dae. i didnt really read e full report for the assignment. so i dunno wad to present. juz read plainly frm e ppt nah. shld be able to pass bah. i dun ask for much juz pass will do.

juz rch hm. gt piss off. my sis has been letting her frez to use my lappy. WTF, let her use beri gd liao somemore invite her frez 2 use my laptop. is nt e 1st time. dunno wad rubbish they do again. going 2 lock both pc until i get my new table. den i will lock my dr when i go to work. piss off. Where is my P&C at hm. Is nt tat i gt tings to hide but i juz hate ppl touching my tings specially when i dun even knw tat person. Nw she has no PC to use. Gd news.

daes has been getting bz. wif stk take coming soon.. n shipments still coming in. i dunno wad hell control e management is taking cos i dun c any. except for e ridge shipment. I dunno, seem like these two has been crashing tis few mths. giving me lots of headache.

Xmas is coming, those xiao di di n xiao mei mei has grown up. Nw i dunno wad to buy for them. n i tink i wouldnt be receiving presents anymore cos i am 21 liao. tat is wad my aunties sae. anyway nt impt. e gathering is more impt. being tgt as family. tink tat is e onli reason tat make me go bck 2 my granny hse every fortnight.

Soon e yr will end den CNY. i dunno if there will be gathering tis yr, cos everyone is like bz wif their own life n is getting harder to meet up. but still we will try 2 start someting n c anyone interested to join. let me tink bef i start anyting hmm...

无言是一种毒药更象一把刀, 我不会再跟你闹我会随着时间蒸发掉。

我是一只小小鸟

2008-11-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

有时候我觉得自己是一只小鸟
想要飞却怎么也飞不高
也许有一天我攀上了枝头却成为猎人的目标
我飞上了青天才发现自己从此无依无靠
每次到了夜深人静的时候我总是睡不着
我怀疑是不是只有我明天没有变的更好
未来会怎样究竟有谁会知道
幸福是否只是一种传说我永远都找不到
我是一只小小鸟
想要飞呀却飞也飞不高
我寻寻觅觅寻寻觅觅一个温暖的怀抱
这样的要求不算太高
所有知道我的名字的人啊你们好不好
世界是如此的小我们注定无处可逃
当我尝尽人情冷暖当你决定为了你的理想燃烧
生活的魔力与生命的尊严哪一个重要

3h to mon again...

2008-11-16T20:59:00.002+08:00

watching tv is someting rare tat i do. juz dun feel like doing anyting.. so tired aft packing e rm. didnt knw i haf so much tings to pack. shifting rm soon. going 2 buy new table n chair..

a rm tat dun really call mine, still sharing wif my sis. juz tat i taking up most of e space anyway e rm dam small n nt really wad i wan. ting juz dun go smooth.

haiz

Memories...

2008-11-15T17:14:00.002+08:00

Haf been bz tis wk, bz trying to finish assignments, bz preparing for e toopid stk take. Argh!!!!!!! Hw I wish I would shout everyting out.. venting everying into e air n stop tinking abt it.

2dae suppose to be going bck for work. But morning e system cant use. I actually wan to go bck in e noon, but I gt lazy. I dun wan to be in e office. Hw I wish I can get out off tat place. But e ting is I gt stuffs to do. N I cant finish. I really cant finish. N I gt complained. Piss off. Work kip coming. Tings nv get done. Ya if work can finish y would ur boss wan to employ u rite.

I wanna to stop blogging, I wan 2 stay focus. But I find it hard. Blogging is abt saeing wad is nt suppose to be said, feeling wad suppose nt to be touched n doing wad suppose to be done. I dun like to sae tings out. But I crap a lot. I am noisy I knw. But when I am quiet means I am either in deep thoughts, tinking abt something or something is bothering me. So I am always noisy all e time. It kip me frm tinking too much n getting tired. Maybe I am juz born to be entertaining myself n disturbing others. Tat’s my nature.

Fri took company transport to cck, made a lot of noise during e trip. Disturb a lot of ppl frm resting. I am sry for being so noisy la. Juz feeling happy n relax cos is a fri at last. N I am going 2 sing which I haven been doing for so long. Away frm all e prob hur. Those toopid assignments.

Aft reading wen’s blog or shld I sae old blog, I find it dam funny. She scold me in her blog le. I get to be in her blog title “si jie ying” lol. So funny. But tat happen long ago. Juz find it funny to c my big nick in someone’s blog title. My blog history didn’t go tat far cos my previous blog I deleted it accidently when e blogger changed it settings. Or u can sae I was toopid den. Nt tat I am clever nw juz tat I haf learn more den my previous daes.

Kip watch e CSI interesting…

A letter tat i dun dare to send.

2008-11-15T16:54:00.003+08:00

i juz wan 2 sae i am sry. maybe i am too over trying to protect the frezship n it backfire. A letter i didnt knw if i shall send, cos i didnt get any reply e previous mail.

i am e one chose to be ignored n turn out to be sad by it. juz toopid me. Maybe i dun knw hw 2 treasure tings. maybe i lost too much tis year. maybe.. maybe..

是不是我的话又伤害了你？
是不是永远不想和我说话？
你的安静是你给我的承罚吗？
可以告诉我吗？

可能是我的倔强和原则破坏我们的感情而不是你复杂的关系。

你知道吗，没有你的唠叨，笑声，还有嘈杂声世界变的好安静。很不惯。

我重来没有不把你当朋友。只是那天心情真的很差，不想多说。我知道我很情绪化，让你很烦真的很对不起。

我知道你见不到你的女儿很伤心而我的笑容以不在让你开心。很对不起我帮不上忙。

只想说对不起请原谅。不管怎样你永远是我的朋友。

it's mon again in 3hrs

2008-11-09T21:15:00.003+08:00

wkend juz pass like a blink. tml is mon again. bck the e chaos lifestyle again. i dunno y. i am feeling frustrated. I am annoy. I am somehw piss off wif myself. I am feeling so useless n helpless. I feel tat I am losing control of my life. My direction somehw gt lost somewhere. I dunno wad am I going to do. As I haf sae bef we survive by being able to predict our environment and acting according. When predictability disappers, so to our sense of safety. I juz dunno wad is going to happen nxt. Lost. I nid time. To tink of wad to do nxt.

My mum is nagging. Nagging abt e mess I haf made. E mess I dun feel like clearing. My dad is pestering us to shift over to my grandma rm. But I dun feel like doing so yet. Everyting they wan, they wan us to follow. Y didn’t they ask us, r we ready? Wad am I doing everydae when I faced my pc? Sometimes I feel tat I am so used to their nt bothered attitude, n when they r really concern I get piss off. Cos u always haven been bothered abt wad I am doing. Y e sudden concern n putting ur hands in my issues. Ya I knw I gt bad manners n my attitude is bad too. N worst is my temper. I knw a lot of ppl dun like me, n misunderstood my meanings. But e ting is I dun really bothered if I dun treat u as a frez. So I dun really care.

I miss my morning session wif my dog 2dae cos I wouldn’t wake up n it’s raining. I miss e chance to spent some quiet morning pondering abt wad is life. I haf spent too much time on my comp. n I dunno wad I am getting out of it. Nt gaming, nt watching tv. Changed a lot of my habit since I start working. N I changed again when I start class. I kip changing to adapt to the new tings tat is happening. But adapting to sudden change isn’t easy. It take time.

I aso dunno y I wan 2 hide my blog nwadaes. Maybe cos there is too much tings piling up tat I dunno hw 2 handle? I juz dun wan ppl to get worry. But am I making ppl worry I dunno. I cant difference wad is concern n wad is the opp of concern?
I onli knw I am irritated. I knw my temper is bad. N it get worst when I am moody. I knw I haf moody swings. N it will affect ppl ard me. I am trying to control. But e will power is juz nt there. Avoiding is e only solution tat I can tink of nw. n there isn’t much I can do. I always wan a break. But I cant define my break. I dunno hw long I wan 2 rest. I dunno hw n when is e rite time to stop n take tat break.

There is really a lot of tings I dunno. But i knw everyting happen for a reason. N I believe life is a cycle. Wad we do in e past will reflect it in e future. I dun rmb wad I haf done when I was young. But I knw I haf regrets. But wad has pass has passed. I dunno y I kip tinking abt it. But actually I onli can rmb fragments of it. Nt e full part. Maybe something wrong wif my brain.

A new wk is coming. I dunno wad to look forward to. I haf stop planning. I dunno hw 2 manage my time. I can onli chiong. I haf learn to kip quiet. Kipping quiet is so hard for me. I am juz so noisy. Cant be helped. Tired. Assignment still nt done. N I dunno hw….

Lesson learn

2008-11-09T15:47:00.001+08:00

Ytd I juz had another class, tings r going harder. Assignments dateline r all so near. I dunno which 2 continue. Cant really focus. Too many to do. Almost had another argument. Nw I find it tiring to read emails. Shooting here n there. I dunno wad’s up. As the number of members increases, the work is harder to do. More conflicts more problems. 9 ppl in a grp too much to handle. Rite frm the start I knw part time studying isn’t easy. Is so !!!

Tut is nt like wad we used to had. Exercise in class where by we do written programming. New way of doing assignment using wiki. Which I find it totally useless. I haf always like to do tings in tech way. Less paper work. More freedom n time. But nw I find tat is getting tiring. Becos tech is making tings easy. We gt to do more to show we haf done researches. N some ppl juz piss me off. I juz dun understand, y do u nid someone’s student id even bef they start doing work? N u r using e source frm e text n we haf to search somewhere else? Tat is lot of teamwork. Human r selfish. I knw. I haf seem it many time.

All those simple sch life haf pass, even part time studies aso has it sides. Human juz like to make tings complicated. Nw I gt to do all e editings, all the junks tat they throw in. sometimes grp assignment juz drain me off. N I really wan some rest on wkends. Wkdaes haf to smile, act like nthing happen. Doing wad I am suppose to do. Watch out my steps. Is getting tiring. N getting worst. Lack of slp? Maybe I juz dun feel like continuing n yet I dun wan to let go. Cos I dunno wad will happen if I really let go. Kip tinking n tinking but is getting nwwhere.

N there is something e lecturer told us abt wad he heard over on radio, as time goes by, when humans interact too much, even love can becomes hate. Human itself is complex, hw abt e relationship? Making it more complex? Maybe wad wen sae is rite. I shall treat as nthing happen. Like kai yan’s case. Tings juz move on as time go by. We moved on when we graduate didn’t we. Even tot I really dunno y tings happen like tis but I am glad we moved on, moving forward is beri impt. We learn thru exp. Exp e lost, e pain, e joy n move on. Tis yr has been nt a gd yr for me. I will do a reflection when e year has finally comes to an end. Reflecting my mistakes helps me move on. Life is still far, gt to kip going on.

Feeling so irritated. Losing control of my temper n feelings. Aft listening to wen, suddenly I understood sometings. But in e meantime, I am still beri lost. Maybe cos too many tings happening at e same time I nid sometime to tink carefully abt it. Hw I am going to move on. But I knw I wan to move forward. I dun wan to be stuck here.

3am

2008-11-07T03:34:00.000+08:00

i dunno y i wake up at tis time? y i cant slp? y 3am? e onli ting i knw tml i will be dam tired....

tired

2008-11-06T22:31:00.002+08:00

juz came bck frm jp... meet wif wen haaa, so long nv meet le. bz bz bz

tml going shushi tei weee. taco wasaba. tink wen is going 2 burn a hole in my pocket. lol =s.

i dunno wad's wrong wif my attitude y i gt 2 show my anger. i juz cant control it. i made ppl worried. i am sry. but i juz cant my temper. maybe it happen too suddenly. maybe i rec'd e bad news n ting happen at e same time. i dunno. mine mind is blank. juz wan 2 get out of tat situation nw.

so fan la. kena bluff again. ask me go study company will pay. nw finish liao sae onli pay haf, somemore bond one year. wtf lor. irriated. spoilt my mood. dam it. no welfare dunno wth HR is doing. onli knw hw 2 act blur worst do tings slow like snail. everting aso last min. dam sian.

i broke my promise. n shattered my own heart wif e lies. once e trust is gone. It's gone. no longer as bef. nv frez again. i hate ppl who lies when i trusted them. nv can forgive. Y shld i anyway? Seem like i am onli treated like a fool.

tml will be another tiring dae. when is tis kind of life going 2 end? when can i stop avoiding. i dunno. i am tired. Am i too harsh in trying to push her away, to pressure to leave eariler? i dunno. i am lost n confuse. someone plz guide me?

I am bck ~~ n gone soon...

2008-11-03T09:45:00.002+08:00

hai. i knw i haf been posting abt unhappy stuffs...

shld i stop blogging. n let it hang there? since u ppl dun like read abt those. or shld i blog but nt posting them. leaving e nice nice blogskin there?

so tired frm e trip walking n walking.. nthing much 2 shop abt. but genting environment dam gd. so refreshing. so cooling. but still there is alot of ppl ard. i like a more quiet place.

didnt go work 2dae. partly cos i am nt feeling beri well. partly cos i haven finish my assignment. N most importantly i dun feel like going bck 2 work. No motivation. Lose my touch there. Getting bored. Kip hearing bad news. No gd news 2 be heard. It's affecting my mood to work.

Ignorance is e best. But some facts are juz rite in front of u. hw 2 ignore. I played toopid. be like a fool. treated like idiot. I shall 4get wad i haf seem. Let's nature take it course. Since ppl always claim they knw wad they r doing. Hope nthing can provoke my mood again. I may haf gt a soft-heart but doesnt mean i dun haf a strong will.

累了

2008-10-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

dam tired.. dunno y. sometimes aft hol i feel more tired. e worst is mine face show it. i always show my emotion on my face, making me a easy 2 guess person. I am trying 2 learn. Hw to hide tat away. So tat ppl ard me wouldn’t be affected when I am dwn. I knw my own temper. I knw is bad. But I cant control. I did try, but nt gd in doing so. When I press my temper dwn my rage grew. Making tings worst hur. Saeing out will be a better way 2 solve tings hur. However it is nt easy 2 sae ting out.

I dunno wad I am doing. Blogging when I am suppose to be doing my assignment. I am running out of time. But I really really dun feel like doing, no mood. Or shld I sae sad, somehw tings dun work out e way I wan it to be.

Drain btw work n study. Too many tings nid 2 be settled. I cant even settle myself to pack for e trip. I wan 2 get out but I nid those time 2 do assignment. I force myself to select a choice. A choice which I dun haf an option. Juz pray n hoping. Something tat I knw I shldnt do. But I gt no choice.

Maybe I am being mislead. Or I am confused by myself. Economy is dwn. Hw I wish tings r bck to previously way bef all tis happens. If I gt a chance. I will nv haf chose to work so early. I would jolly well spent my time as a student. Sometimes it’s nt gd to knw so much. E more u knw e more u face e more responsible u hold. But tat is life. A path I knw is hard, n a path tat I haf chose.

When u r in ur little world, wad r e ppl ard u? passerby? Strangers? I dunno I dun wan 2 knw… Ok I am sad 2dae. ASSIGNMENT argh!!!!!!

Tml will be my last dae. Mth end closing. Tied, stress, moody I dunno hw my temper will fare tml. Hard 2 predict myself, maybe e worst hasn’t come yet…

Shall try 2 type something out for my assignment bef I doze off. Bb.

Y is change hard

2008-10-23T07:38:00.001+08:00

We survive by being able to predict our environment and acting according.

When predictability disappers, so to our sense of safety

Realize & Value

2008-10-19T18:11:00.005+08:00

To realize the value of a sister,
ask someone who doesnt haf.

To realize the value of ten years,
Ask a newly divorced couple.

To realize the value of four years,
Ask a graduate.

To realize the value of one years,
Ask a student who has failed a final exam

To realize the value of one month,
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize the value of one week,
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize the value of one hour,
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of one minute,
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize the value of one-second,
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of one millisecond,
Ask the person who has won silver medal in Olympics.

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you haf.
You will treasure even more when u can share it wif someone special.

To realize the value of a friend,
Lose one.

But isit a high price to pay? So treasure it bef it is gone.

Frustrated

2008-10-19T17:56:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!

Dam noisy. E hse has been nosiy since morning until nw. Dam frustrating. cant they juz shutup. gib me some peace on sun. Always hate sun. No peace. Nag n nag. ask those rubbish wad's e pt. JUZ SHUTUP!!!!! Making all those irraiting noise. Den still sae mine son kip barking. If u all can juz shutup he wouldnt bark so much. toopid!!! Tat y he is most noisy on sun.

I really cant concentrate on mine assignment, no peace i cant calm mine mind dwn 2 start typing someting dwn.

i am trying 1 flood music in e rm. Hope can block all those irriating sound outside. Dam them..

周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢 ~ 没有了 =(

2008-10-19T16:43:00.003+08:00

词：方文山曲：周杰伦

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

Reading

2008-10-16T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hmm still reading.. dun haf e intend to start mine assignment. i wan 2 die @.@. Dun haf e feel. hai. die die, everytime aso like tis de.

Overall, i am still in pretty gd mood 2dae. maybe it will change over e wkends bah. ha i dunno. wkends is normally dam bz or dam free. is either or. cant balance de.

Tml will be going 2 office early 2 settle 1st recon. den wen haven ans me tml wan 2 go study anot >.<. coming sat gt class. den sat going popo's hse dunno gt time 2 do assignment anot.

SUMO

2008-10-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

Did a personality test in a website tat i found in e bk tat i am reading nw.

So i am a carer~thinker.

Personality Style

Character A - Cheerleader, you scored 31
Character B - Carer, you scored 49
Character C - Commander, you scored 31
Character D - Thinker, you scored 35

Cheerleaders are generally enthusiastic, outgoing people who would rarely be accused of ‘bottling up’ their emotions. They value praise and recognition, although it is important to stress that does not mean they are dependent on it. Cheerleaders can often be impulsive concerning their opinions and actions and do not tend to be the most organised of people. (Organisational skills tend to be developed over time as opposed to coming naturally). They enjoy contact with people and have a tendency to attempt a number of tasks at once, often starting a new task before finishing another one.

Carers tend to be less extrovert than Cheerleaders, although they also enjoy contact with people. They are happy not to be the centre of attention, often preferring to listen rather than talk. Generally carers have an easy going approach to life and are comfortable allowing other people to take the initiative in situations. Carers do not like conflict and confrontation and will do their best to avoid it. They enjoy helping others and can really struggle at times to say “no” to people’s requests. They would rather say “yes” than run the risk of causing offence. They are more inclined to follow than lead and place great emphasis on how they ‘feel’ about a situation as opposed to focusing on the actual facts.

Commanders are results orientated people who thrive on challenges. Patience is not a virtue that they are blessed with naturally and they have a strong need to feel they are achieving things or making progress in situations. They can have a tendency to overlook the ‘people issues’ when a task needs to be completed and active listening is something they have to work on. Commanders tend to be decisive people who feel more at home with taking action than with lots of time taken up with discussion and debate. They make tough demands on themselves and expect others to meet their own high standards.

Thinkers tend to be less extrovert than commanders and cheerleaders and less people orientated than carers. They prefer to take a more deliberate, logical, structured approach to tackling situations and feel quite comfortable working on their own. Thinkers are less distracted by their feelings when assessing a situation and often require copious amounts of detail and facts before making a decision. Their cautious approach and tendency towards perfectionism means in certain situations they will be considered slow by others in coming to a decision. Planning and organisational skills tend to come more naturally to a thinker.

Holiday Happy

2008-10-15T20:05:00.002+08:00

Juz came bck frm JP. 2dae feeling great~~. tink cos i haf tot thru sometings tat i cant let go. But i dun really knw if i am able to la. Anyway isnt it great 2 be feeling happy aft being demoralised for so long.

2dae many tings 2 be happy... shall list dwn wahaha..
1st cos i manage to finish mine receiving for crosby shipment within 1 dae. which i nv manage bef. even tot e tings r lesser la n den still gt ppl chasing. but i still feel happy.

2nd i manage to tok 2 mama face to face. which is an improve to me. cos nwadaes i feel uneasy toking to her for god knws wad reason. i manage to overcome it. we hasnt been toking like past time tot. cos of some reasons which i tink is nt suitable to put here =s.

3rd i went JP actually wanted 2 buy dog food de. but no stk n e salesperson recognize me n help me 2 kip wor so gd le =D. den went 2 popular la. so long nv go liao. cos i dun haf e urge to read.
den i saw tis poster. J. K. Rowling is releasing another bk. The Tales of Beedle the Bard. Yeah looking forward sia. Pre-order liao wee... Release date will be 4th dec. woo.. so happy. Finally another bk tat made me wants to read.

4th so since i am inside popular le. so muz c c look look rite. den i saw tis bk. call S.U.M.O (Shup up, move on) Interesting!! lol. e title caught mine attention. den i read e bck of e bk looks nice. den i bought it wif another bk of e similar author. i hope tis bk can gib me inspiration n motivate me. i really nid some out of box ideas to kip me frm tinking too much. So i am glad tat i found 2 bks to kip me bz.

5th sheena called. her sis looking for job. N god knws y i look like i haf alot of lobang. hur. always received tis kind of call de >.<. so i manage to get steven's no. n called him. he rmb me woo.. so happy sia. dam scare he will ask me who am i. ha. cos i knw he nv save mine no. cos i nv gib him mine new no =s. he sae he will help me check out. Gd la gt tis kind of boss. but i dun understand y those teachers there dun like him. he beri gd wad. sometimes super blur aso. but he is a gd boss to me hur. So happy n touch tat he rmb me haha... Ex-boss. maybe some daes i will be asking him for an opportunity again... hooe he can still rmb me by then.

6th simple tings can make one happy. 2dae i am e simple one. one dinner wif e family will be euff. for sometime we hadnt been eating dinner tgt during e wkdaes. actually we seldom eat tgt on wkdaes, cos we came bck at different timing. aft mine grandmother pass away. E sometimes becomes seldom. we do eat tgt during wkends but e feeling is different. Every1 rush bck frm work/sch juz to eat tis meal tgt. Isnt it special? Gd food. Thumb up =).

7th Xmas party is cfn yeah. Recd an email frm mine aunty. So many menu to chose i aso dunno hw haha.. but i tried neo garden nt bad. i tink end up shld be pot luck cos buffet exp haha. per pax min $12.89 excluding GST n delivery charges. Anyway is nt up to me hee. N i dun mind abt e food, e most impt is being tgt n haf fun ~~~

8th Holiday ~~ yeah so happy i am able to siam away frm all tis stress life for 3daes. even though e trip is quite rush but still i am looking forward. E feeling of letting go of everyting is such a relief.

Word of e dae. Singlish. I juz heard tis frm mine lecturer. He actually beri humor. lesson wouldnt be boring wif him.

English: Excuess me, May i pass through please.
Singlish: Siam.

Interesting rite haha..

i shall start reading mine bk.
Mine toopid sis is starting to maple again argh...
I kent dl mine vid =(.
Anyway prison break is taking a break. e nxt ep will be bck on 4th nov.
In e meanwhile i shall watch CSI. provided mine sis let me dl e ep!!!

给我一首歌的时间

2008-10-15T20:01:00.001+08:00

作曲：周杰伦编曲：Micel Lin

雨停下的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这世界上
我晒干了承诺灰的更冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵分开了吵
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才用
能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷
被淋湿的天空灰的更加老旧
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺灰的会很冲动
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
在一起吵分开了吵
是不是说没有做完的梦最错
雨落的好我能承受
在最后的出口再爱过了才有用
能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的回忆里不用太多失眠
如果你想忘记我也能适应
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天
如果你怀疑的心依然勇气当作鄙夷
你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有阴天的回忆
Rap：
你说我不该不该在这个时候
说了我爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
你说我不该不该在这时候才说爱你
要怎么证明我没有说过的力气
我只有阴天的回忆

Recall ytd

2008-10-12T08:17:00.000+08:00

i am nw blogging while on my way 2 nlb to meet wif mine assignment mates. i am late.

juz nw i happen 2 be reading my sis's blog, while reading my tears starts 2 flow, she actually had e same feeling as me when we heard tat mine grandmum was admited 2 hospital. aft e funeral we didnt tok abt it anymore. cos it became a touchy issue at hm.

E scene came bck, mine grandmother laying cold on e kitchen floor. i wouldnt stop mine tears. tat nite it took me awhile 2 be able 2 start crying. i knw i gt 2 be strong nt 2 worry mine parents. but somehw i wouldnt. it was mine 21th. Y tat dae. i kip questioning myself. i dunno hw i will be facing e nxt birthdae. hw am i going 2 tell mine frez. every happy birthdae msg i recd tat dae was a stab. i dunno hw 2 reply. even aft so many mths i can still rmb clearly wad happen tat nite.

i dunno wad happen 2 me 2 feel so negative. maybe cos i recd too much sad news? maybe i pressure myself too, i dunno. i am tired of myself for tinking too much. i hope e coming hol can refresh myself. i wan bck e orginal me.

2nite aft meeting up for e assignment i will be attending my eldest cousin wedding dinner. e wedding tat mine grandmother wasnt able 2 attend. e 1st eldest granddaughter in-law tea tat she miss 2 drink. all i can hope is she is doing fine upstairs watching out for us. i truly missed her. mine parents is asking me 2 shift 2 her rm at e end of e yr. i dunno am i ready 4 tis...

last but nt least i hope every1 can treasure their loved ones cos once they r gone is gone. treasure e surrounding ppl. dun regret when they r gone.

i gt lost once as a child when mine mum brought me 2 e polyclinc. i still can rmb even thought i was onli 3-5 yr old. while i was playing on e playground inside e compound. mine mum suddenly disappear frm my sight. i panicked n start running ard while running i started crying. i wouldnt find mine mum. i still sometimes waking up frm tis nitemare. i dunno y someting tat has happen so long still affects me. maybe frm den onwards i dun haf sense of sericulty wif mine mum. i had hard time slping sometimes numb wif work is a method 2 get some slp.

some memories juz cant be 4gotten. n they r hard to 4get. Ting tat will n can affect ur life normally cant be 4gotten. i hate my brain for tinking so much. sometimes when tings can be kept simple is e best. complicated stuff always turn messy.

i juz had a complicated wk. feeling dam tiring. i was push 2 grow up. n i hate it.

Hol

2008-10-11T11:00:00.002+08:00

Trying to arrange a hol at last. going most likely on 24-26th. cant really go far n long cos i will miss mine son. nobody is at hm. hw can i go oversea wifout worrying... mine dad sae wan 2 go genting wor. for me anyting will be fine. can let go can liao. too stress up. even if i slp well at nite i still feel tired in e morning.

Many haf happen. I juz had an eventful wk. i am tired. ltr still nid 2 meet up for grp assignment. n i forgotten tat i gt 2 attend a wedding 2dae. mine eldest cousin is getting married. hoping all e best for them...

frez r sand on e bench. onli those who treasure one another can grab hold of them

Generation Y

2008-10-08T21:24:00.003+08:00

Currently i am researhing on some HR topic n found tis interesting article abt generation Y.

Generation Y refers to the children of the baby groomer. Aged 15-31. i am one of them. we r look upon as bright, tech-savy, self-assured, multi-tasking who haf juz descended upon the workplace in droves wif their cert.

A typical poly/uni student entering the workforce shld own a mp3; snapped photes or an camera hp; post comments, pic, vid on forums, blogs n youtube, n create a profile on a social networking web. We grow up immersed in tech. however, tech-literacy is a ban to their bosses.

Gen Y's has a habit of sharing information freely online.
Job, even career, hopping, is another Gen Y characteristic.
It is rare for us young ones scount talented to stay beyond three years in the company.

We lack e company loyalty stems frm seeing parents slog long n hard for their companies n get laid off when economy hits a rough patch. Which i agree. N e other point is staying on the same job is boring. like wad i am feeling nw. Bored!!

E best way 2 retain Gen-Y is by rotating them.

Gen-Y workers expect their work to be able to accommodate their family n personal life nt vice versa.

We demand jobs wif flexibility, telecommuting n option to go part-time to upgrade or recharge through extended hol.

higher value has been place in self-fulfilment.

i fully agree to tis article.

Tired

2008-10-06T20:07:00.002+08:00

Numb, Dumb n Stubborn

My current mood nw... E states of mine brain.

No comment. Tml is mine assignment dateline.

I will be dieing soon when dateline becomes deadline.

Hw i wish i would leave e current situation nw.

I am enduring because of the bonus.

Those who r left behide r always the sad ones.

Plz dun leave me behide...

English

2008-10-05T20:52:00.003+08:00

Hai i dunno if i have used too much singlish or what? Now i got no confident in my english anymore.

Yesterday went to the library to do some research for mine assignments. But didnt find much useful information. Because most of the books are very old. And what my lecturers want are updated information from journals.

After that went over to wen's place to eat steamboat. Because she said her place got alot of left over food for steamboat, asking me to finish them together. So tried to buy the pork belly slice for steamboat but then cannot find. So end up buying bacon for BBQ lor. Eat until very full.

Argh Wen complaint about my english when blogging. First the punctuation that i always fail to leave in my messages, no matter sms, tagboard or blog. =P But that is my special way of type. Unless you know me well, you will need some time understanding what i am typing. My typing style can lalala.

Now say "my" and "mine" mixing up. i agree i forget when to put "my" when to put "mine" la. My english kent make it can. But i hope i can still BS(Bullshit or Bachelor standard) in my exam or essay which i really need. Cos mine essay all craps. I dun remember how an essay look likes n thus i dunno how i am going to hand in mine assignment on coming tue.

i still need about 1k word and 4 journals to finish up mine assignment. Praying hard that i can finish up on time. N last but nt least. Wen, my deepest sympathy abt ur grandfather...

Ok i shall continue wif mine assignment.. SIAN

Moving on...

2008-10-05T19:10:00.002+08:00

Got an job offer hope i can get it...

moving forward, going forward...

Still doing e crap assignment..

Hell difficult can..

Juz watch naruto, Asuma Sarutobi died. So sad D:

Shall continue e toopid assignment hoping 2 finish in time. As i am running out of time, dun haf e mei guo time 2 do it argh !!!

A lesson learn ytd

2008-10-03T07:21:00.002+08:00

Ytd went 2 meet up for assignment... dam tired 2dae. mine neck still stiff... Assignment assignment n assignment, seem like i am surrounded by assignment all tis daes.

Anyway ytd some1 was toking abt using a pack of wolf 2 to show abt a teamwork.
Wolf hunts in a pack. Wif an alpha male n an alpha female. When one of the alpha left the pack. the whole pack of wolf will crashed. Because of organize structure of e pack is gone... n the whole pack disapper, or die or hungry...

HR is really interesting... maybe somedaes... it will be mine core. But let me finish mine BBA finish.. I juz nid tat piece of paper... Hoping to live a life like no tml.. I wan time 2 pass as fast as possible... Even though i knw e process is more impt den e outcome. But somehw, tat isnt mine concern anymore...

Ok gt 2 go office alr.. Hope i can haf sometime to do mine research in office.. but e hope is every dim.

Assignment~~

2008-10-01T19:14:00.004+08:00

Hmm morning wake up feeling confused... E hse sound noisy. Den i heard mine alarm n c wah 8am liao...Lucky 2dae no nid work if nt sure late.

Morning no mood 2 do assignement. den start watching e vids. Watch until fall aslp. woke up ard 1pm liao den start assignment. hai.. read n read but i dun really knw wad i am doing. Wad is referencing? wad is journal? I am confused. nobody 2 lead e way. Tink becos mine is part time class e lecturer tinks we will knw wad r those bah.. Anyway no internet access n limited time. Nt much guides given. but e classes r fun la. i like e way they teach. more lively i hate boring class. Nite class is always alr tiring. if e lesson is boring, i tink all fall aslp. so far so gd. Both class i am fully awake even though i am tired. Nxt wk gt 2 hand in assignment liao. i gt 2 spent on time on it.. sat n sun trying nt 2 go out... maybe i will haf 2 spent time reading it during lunch time aso..

Part time degree really isnt easy. Ytd our lecturer mention tat we dun really nid 2 study real hard 2 get all e As n ignore our family n work. Juz a pass will be gd n tat will do. No nid score all As. I agree i juz nid tat toopid paper. Y make life hard. Den he sae no nid because of study gib up every other tings like work... Hmm sometimes i dun really knw la. aft hearing wad he sae, mine mind change.. maybe part time isnt a solution. n it isnt wad i wan. I wan 2 grab best of both. Mine degree n e working exp.. But i dunno am i pushing myself too hard, hw long can i take it. Can i make it to e end. I dun haf a firm stand yet. Maybe my job dun gibl me e feeling i will continue beri long. i nid 2 get a better 1 tat enable me to get e exp n continue studying... I nid a stable job no better pay nvm at least let me able to adjust e pace.. My dad sae nxt yr alot of ppl will be losing their job.. so i am hafing 2nd thoughts... N e toopid investment ting. Every mth mine $300 dunno go where lor.. Shares r dropping.. Will my money go 2 drain. I dunno hw much shld i believe in wad my dad sae.

He juz sae too much but show too little. Sometimes i dun really knw him. He seems to understand me well, but he dun wan 2 show it. He always let me misunderstood him. He like 2 tease me. I juz luv e dad he once was. E one who dun wan 2 drive me 2 sch. But peep at me during sch hr. Nw i dun really wan 2 knw wad he is doing. i am afraid he wan me 2 join him. He juz dun understand standing beside him can be tiring. He is attracting too much attantion which i dun like.

Ok gtg mum nagging again.. going 2 make new glasses hur.. mine degree kip increasing.. haiz.. nite ppl

New dimension

2008-09-30T23:06:00.003+08:00

Hmm i found out tat i haf been blog alot nwadaes... Was reading my own blog.. i mean e past entries la.. Haf been a long way for me tis few yrs. Many changes... Frm a student to a working adult. N finally cross mine 21th birthdae. even thought it is nt a happy event, but i will always rmb tat dae.. Life is all abt e painful n e happy memories. e rest r nt impt.. but sometimes typing out in a blog n reading them years ltr... maybe e views of looking at tat ting may change, cos we grow thru exp.

Is raining heavily outside nw.. 2dae juz gt a tot. Abt fate. When e ting is ur is urs. nobody can take it away frm u unless u gave it up, however if tat ting is nt ur. n u fight to become urs. Tings may turn out nt wad u expected it will be. All it has gt 2 do wif fate.

Actually i gt alot of tings 2 blog but suddenly mine mind juz blank off.. maybe i am tired alr haiz..

I enjoy going for class but i hate assignments n exam... y do i like 2 study n yet hate e other part of it.. if i cant convince myself, i will confuse myself.

I am numb, dumb n stubborn. Maybe tat is e reason y some ppl feel it hard 2 tok or teach me...

Mth end

2008-09-30T16:59:00.001+08:00

Dam sian la.. sys kent use. dun feel like doing work le.. waiting for 5pm n off i go.. Go to sch.. aso sian haiz.
Mine so call grp wan 2 meet up on thur for assignment haiz.. y muz meet up sia. so sian work nt tired meh still muz fly all e way dwn 2 meet them.
Actually meet online better nah. no nid so mafan lor haiz... somemore thur will be dam bz cos nid 2 do accrual list. This mth de accrual long list le… TIRED!!!

5pm faster come argh...
dunno y tis few daes mine mum kip venting her angry on me hai. i dunno wad i do. but it seem like she always do tis la.. juz tat normally i becos i made her angry. But tis time i really dunno wad happen. Dunno feel like toking 2 her. Everytime tok aso quarrel 1. 2 daughters different treatment. I juz dun understand. Maybe I am jealous tat she gib more time 2 mine sis. But e blind aso can tell she dote her more….

Times up going off for kindergarten class bb

ID Combined Communication & Leadership Style Report

2008-09-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

Sian different mood do different findings dunno wad to post lol.. 2dae's mood soso shld be ok 2 post bah...

Dimension Behaviour

Timing: Gradual
You consider matters very thoroughly, but may miss out on some opportunites.

Emphasis: Understate
You are calm and effective under pressure, yet you can be a little too low key.

Thinking: Lateral
You like making and following spontaneous associations.

Focus: Concept+
You see the big picture very clearly and may be somewhat dismissive of details.

Evaluation: Other
You are excellent at identifying difficulties in business but may be seen as a little critical.

Relationship: Initiate
You tend to take charge and lead the way, but you may not finish things off completely.

Perceptual System: Auditory+/Experiential+

Leadership Style: Planner/Analyser

Hmm nt beri true le 2dae. last time looks more accurate. all change onli e leadership style remains the same. So? does mean i am mean 2 be a planner or analyser?

Memories r always sweet

2008-09-27T22:57:00.003+08:00

Juz came frm mine grandparent's hse.. Family gathering. Is so rare to see every1 gather ard when it is nt neither chinese new year nor xmas. Mine mum side was a big family, wif 6 siblings. So it will be crowed when every1 gathered tgt.

Went to visit mine grandma at Tan tock seng straight aft class. She look pale laying on bed. Mine grandpa was looking angry n tired. Maybe becos of mine grandaunt la. Both of them haf been quarrelling since shifting. Has been so long tat mine grandpa tell stories abt us when we r young. Most of e stories r abt me la. Cos i stay wif them when I am young. Both of them doted me as well. They r actually afraid of me, wahaha cos I am e famous cry baby. Lol I bet nobody believe sia. Haha.

I dun let any tom, dick or harry to carry me, n cry a lot. I rmb whenever mine parents bring me to mine grandparent’s hse on sun nite or mon morning. I will always cry to go hm. N mine grandma haf 2 trick me so tat mine parents can leave e hse. Den e funny ting is when mine parents came to fetch me bck on fri nite on sat I dun wan 2 go hm again haha… so I cry whenever I go. Mine grandpa always like to make fun of me. Cos I am notty n cry baby hur. Den gib them a lot of trouble lor. Haha. Hearing them toking abt e past make me feel tat they r growing older as we grow up. N is our turn to take care of them. Like hw they use 2 spent their precious time taking care of me, making sure I eat mine meals, bring me out to playground, watch cartoons wif me when they haf better tings to do. I really thanks them tat they brought me up so well. E childhood tat they gib me was none but e best, even thought mine parents wasn’t wif me most of e time in mine childhood time. Memories r always sweet. Hw I wish I could continue hiding in their arms…

Anyway we r suppose to be celebrating mine grandpa birthdae 2dae. But I tink because mine grandma was admitted, we r nt suppose to celebrate or something like tis bah… So end up celebrating for e Oct babies lor.

老爸给的名。。

2008-09-27T08:18:00.004+08:00

我的：

內在想法
*腦筋比較保守死板，不容易變通
*外表溫訓文靜的樣子，但是外柔內剛型
*講求道理，對就是對、不對就是不對，不能容忍放水
*不喜歡冒險，喜歡安定有保障的生活
*吃軟不吃硬，只要對方態度放軟就會跟著心軟

外在行為
*喜歡以和為貴，不喜歡衝突場面
*對於他人的意見都會聽，學習新的事物也很認真
*態度溫和、好溝通
*生性樂觀比較沒有危機意識，習慣把煩惱留給明天
*由於個性很好，老中青三代都會很喜歡

財運分析
*天生財庫★★★★☆
*財庫袋平時沒有洞，但碰到親情壓力時，就會出現一個很大的洞漏光你的財
*賺錢速度中等，可以穩定的儲存財富，也會越滾越多
*花錢速度很慢，可以理性的去支配錢財，但最怕碰到親人有財難，容易被借走而拿不回來
*偏財運★★★☆☆　天生偏財運還算可以，偶爾怡情小賭能賺點零用錢

感情分析
*初戀通常會傷得很重，而從此害怕再談戀愛
*重視對方的經濟、生活能力，才會對另一半放心
*無法忍受另一半的不忠，一旦被懷疑就無法原諒
*要交男友前會有一段比較長的觀察期，來測試對方是否真心
*婚後會沉浸在家庭生活中，用心經營家庭

Listen to your heart....

2008-09-27T07:36:00.001+08:00

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.

And there are voices that want to be heard.
So much to mention but you can't find the words.
The scent of magic, the beauty that's been when love was wilder than the wind.

Please dun....

2008-09-26T23:09:00.003+08:00

Mine grandma was admitted to hospital.... Mine mum juz told us actually can discharge but some other prob surface... Nw still checking..

If nthing wrong. 1am can discharge. Please let nthing happen. Mine grandpa birthdae is coming. Tml we r suppose 2 be celebrating his birthdae.

I am praying hard. Please dun let anyting happen.

Mine wound is still nt healed yet dun let it deeper..

PLEASE DUN...D:

Juz a normal gal

No airport pass =[

Tis post is a reminder to myself

For the past 2 years....

Sick

双子座(Gemini)

A new job

time

a strange dae

2009

The Stupidity Test

Birthdae

Holidae

痞子英雄

Prison Break

Hai

Ho Li Dae

Hi Hi

IT Fair / CCS

熊猫的生日

My way of life

HP Lost & Found

Updates

My dream pc ~~

Dad's crazy idea

Sch

Back...

Happy Chinese New Year

2009

Touching ~~ sob

Bangkok big fire

daydreaming dae ~~

Happy new year~~

又是一天

Pics of zoo

Zooooooo.....

Morning ~~

Someone...

wad's up

Awwwww.....

Maple - New job Pirate

exam is comin

sentosa plan

阴天

楊丞琳 - 帶我走

Xmas

bz

男人女人 - 許茹芸 & 阿穆隆

I am bck~~

New blogskin

Surrender

dead meat

Rihanna - Unfaithful

Ryan Cabrera - True

李聖傑 - 癡心絕對

Assignment

Class

Last post 2dae.

HOW FRIENDSHIP BREAK ?

朋友

Banana power

Moody

Morning ~~

Where is the rainbow? 红、橙、黄、绿、青、蓝、紫 那一色是我的？

Blue corals my fav bubble tea LOL...

Coming daes...

我是一只小小鸟

3h to mon again...

Memories...

A letter tat i dun dare to send.

it's mon again in 3hrs

Lesson learn

3am

tired

I am bck ~~ n gone soon...

累了

Y is change hard

Realize & Value

Frustrated

周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢 ~ 没有了 =(

Where is the rainbow? 红、橙、黄、绿、青、蓝、紫那一色是我的？

Holiday Happy