Monday, November 22, 2010

No airport pass =[

It is going to be another month soon.. Time pass real fast wif my current job. Haf been working nearly 3 mths alr. But I haven gt my season pass sian.. Tml suppose to be at airside but wifout a pass I am stuck outside.. Todae station at t3. e workload nt as heavy n I checked mine email Todae at last... But still no news sia.. Hope I can get mine pass soon.

Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:06 PM

Yahoooo.. Got mine iphone4 ytd.. 1yr ltr to jailbreak 2yrs ltr to change new hp =P
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 8:44 AM

It has been a long time since i last blog... Currently working nite shift.. Nthing much todae except i forget to bring my ic, so cant go inside...

Recent activties has brought bck alot memories... it is been a happening year for the past two years... Alot of changes...
Change is always happening in every second of our life.. Every decision we made, promise we break affects e near future...
I have learn alot n tink alot. But e more i tink e more experience gain every step n move becomes heavier. I juz read an article toking abt young singaporeans lack e moviation to sucess in life n less been living too gd a life. But i dun tink tat generation has come yet but tat will apply to the 90s soon...
Recently there has been alot of gang activities on going in e newspaper dun really understand y they join those gangs...

Singapore is changing alot, I feel tat it is no longer e homeland tat it used to be. There are so many foreigns labeling themselves as citizen. Even thought the economy us stable n growing, it no longer feel like home. But my parents tink tat Singapore is still gd for living...

Even since I started Tis new current job the feeling gets stronger, n I being to feel irritated by those Singaporeans. they feel tat they shod be treated as kings n queens. Muz be super polite to them, serve them wif all their qn. Sometimes it juz feel tired, wif nth on ur bck for support.
Tml is another morning shift hope I will survive until nxt year at least which left wif one n a half month..
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:57 PM

Haiz has been sick for a week liao .. Tml will be a new week. Hope everything is fine and smooth. There r many things in mind. Cant juz make up mine mind. I nv gt e break i deserve. Shld i juz break for a second to catch my breathe...

I am feeling breatheless...
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:23 PM

有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。 对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。 双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。 双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。 我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了； 要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。 每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。 双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！


Hmm i tink quite true.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:23 PM

I knw i haven been blog for a long time... Many things haf changed in this short period of time. Be it relationship, environment, thinking and many many more. People change so as our surrounding.

I haf at last quitted my job at ATS, aft enduring for three years. Finally the company piss me off and off i go.. Now working in a smaller local company, job scope mainly on purchasing of w/s consumable. But i still dun like to meet suppliers. haiz. But still gt to entertain them even when they knock our doors uninvited.

Currently i am still enjoying my "sch hol" n nt intending to start in the nxt sem cos i am really tired. I dunno y tis job makes me so tired. Dino sae cos is stressful? but dunno lah haah.. Agree tat e job is stressful n haf a heavy workload, but e boss treats us better. Somemore she is pregnant. Cos pregnant woman gt more mood swings hur, but she treats us better lor. Really. But one thing maybe e expectation is different bah. Cos ATS is consider more estalish den e current, so some of e things r nt really understandable. They r still going thru the stage of standardising their procedures, as they haf juz change e erp sys.

I dunno when i will wan to continue my driving lesson, as i am broke haiz.. Hw to save for my harry potter park =(. So sad nah.. How i wish i strike toto or 4D.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 6:21 PM

Today went to 7-11 planning to buy big m. But they no longer sell it. Meji haf taken over. I still misses e morning bkfast, but time will change everything. Like I watch lost first season I can't link it to season six although some char r same.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 1:21 PM

Couldn't slp. Hiding inside my blanket,getting so hot. So long haf not been blogging n I couldnt rmb my user id lol.
Today is a beri strange dae. Tis morning while going for driving lesson at 7+, a attitude young boi approach me for money. I was sitting at e bus stop waiting for bus while studying for my final theory. Tis boi suddenly sit beside me n told me his mum gave him $4 for lunch n went to work. N he lost e money.So I understand he want me to give him money la. But I dun believe him, e way he intro himself n sit beside me is like throwing a piece of meat nxt to me n splash the blood along. E moment he sit den I feel like walking away. In e end no money for him n he ask to read my theory bk. So irritating, can't he see my stop disturbing me face. Lucky he left shortly.

I took my final theory evaluation today n failed, cos I last min hug Buddha leg.

Today's driving lesson is on starting n stopping on slope. Did quite ok la. Cos tried bef. But wouldn't drive smoothly at first. Cos of toopid stk tk, 2wk no driving. The instructor beri naggy. Kip repeating wad he sae. Den juz bef going bck to bbdc, gt BMW cut into my lane at a traffic junction. Den e instructor honk e bmw. Den the BMW aso siao one. Cut lane nvm, aft tat stop suddenly at the turn causing a jam behind. Den e instructor beri ji dong sae wan to make police report, kip asking me e car colour. I told him sliver or gray den he kip asking isit green or blue. Kent tahan. Somemore ask me drive bck to see the road name win liao.

2 weird ppl in a dae. Wad a dae.

My pdl kena water words abit fate dunno Tml can drive on road abit hai....
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:51 PM

2dae had some talks wif my boss. he said things tat shld nt be said n told me to kip quiet abt it. there are many ideas behide these talks. i juz gt this feeling tat it will affect me. but hw, why and when i am not sure off. i am in doubled. i will be miaing as the mth slip in and the activties increases without acknowledge...

therefore my reflection of the year is not to let ppl too close n continue letting time slipping through when i enjoy the contemporary peace sank in.

my nxt yr goal will be to visit harry potter park, finish my degree, change job if the opportunity comes and lastly getting my driving license.

End of the mth will be visiting it fair to renew contract n change my hp. plz let the hp price drop so i can save more for my harry potter park.

wad i type may not makes any sense therefore gdnite.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:31 PM

I dunno y i juz feel so stress up. Sch n work taking alot of my time. but at least i look forward to my driving lessons. One tat i would really control it in my hand.

there are things tat i am trying to understand n trying real hard nt to judge it bef understanding. but it may take forever to understand. thinking are complex. if human brain are simpler. would things haf been had easiler. nwadaes getting more n more bz. haf been doing reports for the whole week n not yet finish. there are so much to learn. so many things to grab but i let them slip through my hands. cos when tat happen i feel relieved.

sometimes i wish tat i would go by to my pri sch, whereby i normally spent time looking through the window at the stairs. i dunno wad i am looking for but when i let the time slip pass me. n someone awake me frm my daydreaming. things felt relieved. i haf nt had tis feeling for a long time.

i like to be left alone, away frm all the chaos, things shld be left simple, cos i am alone. I like the feeling of the peace. hope it will continue.



http://www.crimsonrain.com/2009/10/english-song-enya-o-come-o-come.html
i like tis song. e feeling of mystery n freedom. e sense that if i dare to do, nthing could stop me. i will upload the song when i am free.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 11:18 PM






Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:04 AM

sooo tired 2dae. but it was fun n enjoyable. father's dae. Go Kboxing at jp safra. So many ppl la. den kip changing ppl. Sing n sing old new wadever song aso gt ar. Safra member go onli $10 for 2-3hr lor.. so cheap nah..


source frm maggy's blog =P

My entries all no link de. if u knw me, most of the time i tok no link de haha. 2dae's entry is base on my memory. but hor u knw la, i gt stm mah. So i kent rmb every details. So if i miss out any parts rmb for me thanks..

June like aso gt many ppl birthdae sia.. ytd celebrated once at my grandparent hse, 2dae another one. June holiday used to be the best mth for me. cos no nid go sch ar so happy. nw is nt the best mth alr. cos normally ard june company will sae when when stock take liao. sianz.. Tml nid to go work liao so boring la.. nthing to blog abt when working. Work is like dae in dae out. different problems but same ting. no point saeing cos is hard to explain n some dun understand too...

Tis yr i had a early birthdae celebration cos ping n her sis going overseas. Ate steamboat at my hse. 1st time i ask so many ppl come my hse. Normally i dun ask ppl visit my hse cos my guard nt tat friendly wif strangers. We had alot of leftovers ar. but everyting finish within the nxt wk. Cos i wasnt working. i luv steamboat haha.. Anyway wad i tink birthdae no nid buy present la. econ so bad muz save $ ok. E best is gather ard n eat a meal. Being tgt is e impt part nah. But i still muz still sae thanks for the gifts.

Ok tis section is specially for someone de cos gt ppl complaint nv c her name in my blog wor. So muz specially highlight haha..



My new watch.
White watch >.<, second white watch le. Dunno y ppl tink white watch suits me. But nvm i shld try wearing them. Cos someone sae muz c me wear on my wrist la.. LOL jking k. Cos i trust ur taste. haha happy aft reading? Anyway i still cant figure out wad is e 3rd small circle for le.. i dunno hw to read manual cos i am a explorer. i play wif it rather den learning it haha... Thank you ok. study well for ur "O" levels but dun over stress. u r doing great wif ur current study. dun worry too much. If u nid someone to crap find me ok. but dun bully me hor, i am ur ying ying jie jie ok =P (btw my thumbdrive still wif u le. no show c liao D=

ok la i go slp le.. tml still nid to work ar.. nt like some of e happy kids out there hafing hol n maybe an extra wk hol becos of H1N1 virus.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:20 PM

weee haf been taking leaves these few daes.. working is dam sian. old liao play game aso tired.. maple nw server maintaince nah.. kent play aso..

2dae will be bzbz. ltr nid to go for interview den go for basic driving evaluation. Hope i can pass this time den go for the test nxt mth. Muz PASS!!!
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:52 AM



Nice show muz watch...
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:21 PM

Sad juz finish watching prison break last ep. the show that i haf been chasing since poly has ended. Juz like e same feeling i had when i read harry potter's last bk. i dunno wad to look forward to.

Everyting will come to an end one dae, no matter wad. I really nid to learn hw to let go. 拿得起放的下。i am really bad at it. hai...but i understand every end is also a beginning. To end for a new beginning..Anyway, tml will be going for an interview.. for fun? Since someone called i wouldnt throw away the chance la.. Even though the job nw is more interesting, however is aso more stressful. i even stop studies for 1yr. but i nv tell mine parents. i tink they gt alot to worry abt. One less to worry is not a solution but at least not tension.

Life is going harder, my parents are getting older, sometimes my mum talks abt her workplace make my heart beri pain, but i cant really do anything. Gt to work harder, let them worry lesser. Hope my sis will be more sensible. There is too much tings tat I tink in life is helpless abt. I dun really knw if fate is my hand. There is too much to tink abt. So much to learn, yet I dunno if I can adapt to the ever changing world. Many words are mean to be said, but I said too much already. Is silence really golden?

Thur will be the last exam for the year, but yet I dun feel the tension to study for the test. Maybe I am prepared to fail, cos my final report wasn’t finish when I handed up. I really dun tink I can continue… Many ppl juz pass n go.. I dunno if I will get numb one dae by tis feelings.

Sun will be my grandmother’s lunar death anniversary. Another boring family gathering.. has been so many mths since I last visit my grandparents. Bz wif work n sch. I wonder will it ever stop. Since I will be planning to learn driving when I finish my exam. Intend to make a visit on june bah, since I already taken leave. Maybe will change plan if I gt a new job la.

Aug gt stock take again. Dam sian. Every few mths gt new activties dam tiring. Dec-jan account auditing, feb-march iso internal auditing, march-april external auditing, may-june operational auditing, july-aug cycle count, sept-oct iso internal auditing, oct-nov external auditing, nov- dec stock take. Then the cycle repeats again. Argh so sian lor. Hw to breathe wor. Account is changing whole lot of ppl. Young ppl are leaving, those old, hard core old aunties and uncles juz stuck their butt on the chairs. They are juz so $%@$##%^!^#%#@%#!%!@$.... I juz dun understand when their children are working outside like me, hw would they feel abt those aunties and uncles they faced liked us. I always believe, 好人有好报，坏人有报应。对人好，人家也会对你好。However when I start working in tis company, these doesn’t apply anymore. Some ppl juz sux to the core, no matter hw u treat them, they are still the same. Some ppl juz dun care. N I dun wan to care anymore. Is really not up to my judgement anymore. I cant different those who r fake n those who care… I am somehw numb. Adult mind is beri complex. I juz cant understand why simple tings can be so hard to them. Anyway I cant be bothered anymore. Since those ppl I once respected is leaving soon.

I gtg tml nid to wake up early for interview nah….. hope I will update soon…
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:22 PM

Sian le..
Fail my 1st assignment.
=(
Ltr still gt class.
2nd assignment handed in alr.
Tis module looks harder den it sound.
still gt 3rd assignment n a report.
Left 1 mth to do.
More n more sian...
So much $$ thrown in, dunno if i can really get e cert.
Anyway i started online shop.
Feel free to take a look ha.

Shop
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 10:46 AM

Yeah tml no nid to work la, cos on leave nah. gt to do assignment liao. sian..

tis few wks been bz... Do different tings different ways.

Is gd to haf a change of work scope aft doing the same tings for 2yr.

things get pretty bored if a Geminian kip doing it.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 5:17 PM

bz bz learning alot of tings at a go.. blur liao hai.. i cant even rmb my user to log in. lucky i gt record sia. if nt tis blog can close dwn liao hoo hoo...

die lor.. assignment haven do sia..going to be dead le.

time is passing so slowly.. sat nid to go sch sian.

following the flow of the motion...



雨过天晴后的天空是否还是一样。 彩虹的背后是否隐藏甚么秘密.
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 9:04 PM

Juz went to check on hardware zone forum..
Saw a interesting post... abt hw the CCS cum up wif.
CCS meaning chop carrot show lol...
Cos ting bought in IT fair nt really cheap like wad ppl really tink.
But i tink i bought e thumbdrive cheaper den outside pricing.
But i knw la.. SLS can get cheaper pricing. But the ting is tat i dun really like to buy frm SLS unless i gt the time to really check the prices for the tings i wan to buy... N i tink my new mouse was more exp den SLS. But anyway tings are already bought =). No regrets.

Through tis IT fair i learn alot .. frm walking ard so many stalls, squeeing through the crowds.. Thing may not be cheap n gd even wif this kind of crowd...
N tings can be more exp anyway. anyway i am juz plain lazy to go SLS =P...
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 5:20 PM

熊猫生日,

对大家说: 我许了两个愿望,

一个是可以把我的黑眼圈治好,

另外就是希望有一张彩色照片…………

=)
Xiao Yin is drown in thoughts @ 5:14 PM